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10-Vulture 1-Deer 2-Rabbit / a. d. V id. Ian. MMDCCLXVII A.U.C. / Anno IVxxi ☉ 2° Aqu ☽ 13° Lib

Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Mahtlactlicozcacuautli Cemazatl Ometochtli (10-Vulture 1-Deer 2-Rabbit)
7th day of the Antinous Lunus Moon
Anno IVxxi ☉ in 2° Aquarius, ☽ in 13° Libra
dies Mercurii a. d. V id. Ian. MMDCCLXVII A.U.C.
???th day of “I have already been killed for my imperfections”
266th day of “the seed that weaves an abundance of belonging, taking our splintered lives and growing a living web of interconnectedness. The intention of strength together, an equilibrium of giving and receiving.”
224th day of “I dance in right relationship with desire in every moment”
83rd day of “We sacrifice that which keeps us from living in love”

The significance of this day
Day Cozcacuauhtli (Vulture) is governed by Itzpapalotl as its provider of tonalli (Shadow Soul) life energy. Cozcacuauhtli signifies long life, wisdom, good counsel and mental equilibrium. It is a good day to confront the discontinuities, disruptions, failures and deaths one suffers in life. Cozcacuauhtli is a day for tricking the Trickster.

The thirteen day period (trecena) that starts with day 1-Mazatl (Deer) is ruled by Tepeyollotl, the Heart of the Mountain, the Jaguar of Night, lord of the animals and darkened caves. Tepeyollotl is Tezcatlipoca disguised in a jaguar hide, whose voice is the echo in the wilderness and whose word is the darkness itself, calls to the heart in the voice of the conch. These are 13 days associated with the hunt: whether one is the hunter or the game, this trecena reminds us that our lives are determined by the act of stalking. The arts of tracking and back-tracking, of spotting and camouflaging, of following tracks and covering tracks, rule our lives to the degree that we master them. These are good days to study the routines of others; bad days to keep to your routines.

TONIGHT's Cancer Full Moon is the lunar phase we call the LUNUS MOON in Antinous Moon Magic — the Moon of Moons!

This is a Full Moon which brings out powerful emotions. Because this Full Moon always occurs during December/January, it is emotional farewell to the old year and heart-felt welcoming of the new year.

You will shed sentimental tears for loved ones you have lost during the past year, not to mention a job or other things you may have lost.

Each lunar phase represents a Divine Spirit or Archetype. The Spirit of Lunus is Antinous the Moon God. It is your His lunar divine self.

Antinous the Gay God was worshiped in ancient times as a lunar deity. The "Man in the Moon" was actually the "Blessed Boy in the Moon" to the ancient worshipers of Antinous.

The Spirit of the Lunus Moon is the spirit of emotions, unconscious habits, rhythms, memories and moods. It is also your dreams and nostalgia. Lunus is the personification of the unconscious mind and it is all dreams and visions.

The OBELISK OF ANTINOUS states that he hears the prayers of his worshipers and sends them healing visions as they slumber. Lunus is the personification of intuition and mediumistic abilities.

Lunus is clairvoyance itself. Lunus is also the bringer of nightmares, fears, traumas and irrational emotional imbalance.

Just as the Moon moves the tides, Lunus brings emotional fluctuations. Lunus is inconstancy, inconsistency and flux. As the phases of the moon change, so Lunus is all things which flow and fluctuate. It is all things which come and go like the tides.

Tonight's Lunus Moon is a propitious time for meditations and rituals delving into your emotional state of being, and also for intuitive or clairvoyant trances.

On Wednesday brace yourself for a volatile atmosphere at work (or play, for that matter) when ANTINOUS THE MOON GOD is in very tense aspects to Uranus, Pluto, Jupiter and Venus. Co-workers will fly off the handle and bark at you for no good reason. Try to keep calm and not say something you will regret tomorrow.

How does a monarch butterfly escape its chrysalis when it has finished gestating? Through tiny holes in the skin of the chrysalis, it takes big gulps of air and sends them directly into its digestive system, which expands forcefully. Voila! Its body gets so big it breaks free. When a chick is ready to emerge from inside its egg, it has to work harder than the butterfly. With its beak, it must peck thousands of times at the shell, stopping to rest along the way because the process is so demanding. According to my analysis, Cancerian, you're nearing the final stage before your metaphorical emergence from gestation. Are you more like the butterfly or chick?

As soon as you're trying really hard to figure out just where they're coming from, you're already doing it wrong, Cancer. Under these astro-conditions, your impulse will be to put your intuitive feelers to good use, probing beneath their words and into their underlying emotional complexes (or at least your interpretive perception of what you're picking up), in order to help you determine a resonant strategy for addressing them in whatever language their heart will best understand. Stop right there. That's a lot of energy to expend on trying to play to their present psychological state… which not only implies you're adopting a fairly indirect or passive-aggressive approach to expressing where you're coming from (since it's overly dependent on conditions existing outside of you), but also borders on being needlessly intrusive on the psychic level. Rather than attempting to elicit a certain response from them, head off their potential criticism or upset, and/or spare them the pain you might otherwise cause (or so you think), then, please just dispense with all those convoluted acrobatics—and stand firm in what you want, regardless of how they're liable to react. If you don't, you're only prolonging your own dissatisfaction and/or setting yourself up for tougher exchanges later, once you have to explain why you didn't speak up earlier.

My ramblings/what I plan to do with it: Today is a day for stalking the Trickster, hunting the Trickster down and counting coup on the Trickster. An interesting day for a staff meeting, followed by a block party planning meeting, followed by a grantwriting committee meeting, followed by a mediated conversation with the coworker I have such a hard time with, followed by the Berkeley Poetry Slam (I hope, anyway). Damn, tomorrow will be busy, eh? And the stars seem to say that those meetings (two of which I’m facilitating!) will be, ahem, fun. I suppose that means there will definitely a lot of time to study the routines of others, to confront the discontinuities, disruptions, failures, and deaths of my life. I still struggle to live up to the Naraya spell prior to “I dance in right relationship with desire in every moment”, which was “I open my crabshell and my eyes that I might truly and deeply connect with others in my fullness and with mutual respect”. The tonalli of today looks to be useful in this respect, as does the influence of Antinous the Moon God. Of course, at least one interpreter cautions me the other way, cautions me to become more me (growing bigger, perhaps, rather than peckpeckpecking). I must see those routines, sense the interests and desires of the group, and STILL stand firm in what I want. Ah! That’s the hard part!

The sense to open up is still the intuitive, the unconscious, the third eye perhaps. I have to listen to the voice of the group under the voice of the group when facilitating. I fear I’m not up to it, to tell you the truth. Am I the butterfly or the chick? Are their holes in this busy day or do I need to poke at it it forcefully with my beak? O Mommy Eris, may your chaos and conflict serve to amplify that voice that it might be easier to hear. O Mommy Eris, I need your help. O Mommy Eris, the clamor you bring may either be that voice I seek or it may overpower it and deafen me. Let it be the former, let it open those breathing spaces in my chrysalis that I might expand in my own power and become as big as I need to be (and no more). Do this for me, Mommy Eris, and I will cook hot dogs for you Friday night at the retreat!. You shall have a meal of honor!
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