Chicuacemallinallii Cemazatl Ometochtli (6-Grass 1-Deer 2-Rabbit)
2nd day of the Antinous Lunus Moon
Anno IVxxi ☉ in 27° Capricorn, ☽ in 13° Leo
dies Ueneris prid. Non. Ian. MMDCCLXVII A.U.C.
???th day of “I have already been killed for my imperfections”
261st day of “the seed that weaves an abundance of belonging, taking our splintered lives and growing a living web of interconnectedness. The intention of strength together, an equilibrium of giving and receiving.”
219th day of “I dance in right relationship with desire in every moment”
78th day of “We sacrifice that which keeps us from living in love”
Day Malinalli (Grass) is governed by Patecatl as its provider of tonalli (Shadow Soul) life energy. This day signifies tenacity, rejuvenation, that which cannot be uprooted forever. Malinalli is a day for persevering against all odds and for creating alliances that will survive the test of time. It is a good day for those who are suppressed, a bad day for their suppressors.
The thirteen day period (trecena) that starts with day 1-Mazatl (Deer) is ruled by Tepeyollotl, the Heart of the Mountain, the Jaguar of Night, lord of the animals and darkened caves. Tepeyollotl is Tezcatlipoca disguised in a jaguar hide, whose voice is the echo in the wilderness and whose word is the darkness itself, calls to the heart in the voice of the conch. These are 13 days associated with the hunt: whether one is the hunter or the game, this trecena reminds us that our lives are determined by the act of stalking. The arts of tracking and back-tracking, of spotting and camouflaging, of following tracks and covering tracks, rule our lives to the degree that we master them. These are good days to study the routines of others; bad days to keep to your routines.
TONIGHT's Cancer Full Moon is the lunar phase we call the LUNUS MOON in Antinous Moon Magic — the Moon of Moons!
This is a Full Moon which brings out powerful emotions. Because this Full Moon always occurs during December/January, it is emotional farewell to the old year and heart-felt welcoming of the new year.
You will shed sentimental tears for loved ones you have lost during the past year, not to mention a job or other things you may have lost.
Each lunar phase represents a Divine Spirit or Archetype. The Spirit of Lunus is Antinous the Moon God. It is your His lunar divine self.
Antinous the Gay God was worshiped in ancient times as a lunar deity. The "Man in the Moon" was actually the "Blessed Boy in the Moon" to the ancient worshipers of Antinous.
The Spirit of the Lunus Moon is the spirit of emotions, unconscious habits, rhythms, memories and moods. It is also your dreams and nostalgia. Lunus is the personification of the unconscious mind and it is all dreams and visions.
The OBELISK OF ANTINOUS states that he hears the prayers of his worshipers and sends them healing visions as they slumber. Lunus is the personification of intuition and mediumistic abilities.
Lunus is clairvoyance itself. Lunus is also the bringer of nightmares, fears, traumas and irrational emotional imbalance.
Just as the Moon moves the tides, Lunus brings emotional fluctuations. Lunus is inconstancy, inconsistency and flux. As the phases of the moon change, so Lunus is all things which flow and fluctuate. It is all things which come and go like the tides.
Tonight's Lunus Moon is a propitious time for meditations and rituals delving into your emotional state of being, and also for intuitive or clairvoyant trances.
On Friday that romantic blast from the past on Thursday really clears up some long-standing misunderstandings on Friday when Mercury and Uranus form a positive sextile aspect while ANTINOUS THE MOON GOD is in a tense configuration with Mercury. The atmosphere will be charged with electricity, but when the electrical storm subsides, the air will be clear of misunderstandings.
In her poem "Catch a Body," Ilse Bendorf says she dislikes the advice "Don't ever tell anybody anything." On the other hand, "Tell everyone everything" isn't the right approach, either, she says. Judging from your astrological omens, Cancerian, I surmise that you're wavering between those two extremes. You're tempted to think you've got to do one or the other. Should you cultivate the power that comes from being silent, and keep people guessing about your true feelings? Or should you seek greater intimacy but risk giving away your power by confessing all your inner thoughts? I suggest you take a middle path. Tell the vivid truth, but carefully and incrementally.
This week's full moon in Cancer could likely exacerbate an internal friction that's brewing… one which may have you caught between dutifully continuing your longer-term investment in a certain relationship and angrily snapping about and/or at that certain someone for having different needs or wants than you do. What we don't want to happen, Cancer, is for this exacerbated emotional condition to spur you to communicate your frustrated response to these differences between you with a harsh indicting edge, as if the party-in-question is somehow causing you a personal affront by being their own distinct individual. To be honest, it doesn't actually feel like this 'problem' (if, in fact, there is one) is a factor of something this other person is doing wrong. Rather, it's a matter of how you behave in relationships in general… and whether you're angry with yourself for paying too much mind to what they're up to, at the expense of taking care of yourself first. And therefore, your best solution will not likely come from picking a confrontation (though you may yearn for the release of blurting out unkind observations). Instead, you probably need more alone time, so you can focus on yourself more and reexamine the ramifications of your oh-too-familiar relational habits.
My ramblings/what I plan to do with it: Well, this seems pretty clear. Today is a day to stand in the fullness of my fuzzy subtle senses, to watch with the intenseness of the jaguar, to listen with the intentness of his prey, all in those misty not-quite-clear, impossible-to-understand intuitive realms. Breathe, open the soul, and be still but ready. Call my love Season. Ignore the wall of the phone at my ear, which always brings me to reserve myself. Open, talk. Be real and present. Breathe into the middle path which is discernment. I love her. I am scared. I love her. Breathe.
That relationship with different needs and/or wants than me? It’s not with her, or with any of my three loves (well, okay, my ex said to get in touch with it re: process date) or with my lover Jai or with my dom (ok, maybe a little - I am scared there that will turn the same rotten my relationship with my ex did) -- it’s with the organization I work for. They just recently opened up to me serving them as a cultor, as a priest/ess (those are actually, legally, my official titles!), but I need to fundraise enough money to pay my salary in order to do so. I had last week, but they didn’t want to move too quickly, so I couldn’t do anything last week. This week has been a shit week for fundraising, and that’s got me hella bummed. I’ve been a bit short at work as a result. Taking two nights ago to myself and scrapping my slam plans (fuck! I missed Queen Jasmeen!) really helped, so I might need to look to how I organize my evenings in order to help that.
Tonight is Temple to Inanna and Dumuzi. Seems like good omens to meet them and have them flow through me. Rather looking forward to it!