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Quoting Wikipedia is dangerous, I know (even if it is the only word I know of which marries Hawai'ian and Greek roots to mean "quick education"), but here we go:

"Traditionally, the daily life of the Benedictine revolved around the eight canonical hours. The monastic timetable or Horarium would begin at midnight with the service, or "office", of Matins (today also called the Office of Readings), followed by the morning office of Lauds at 3am. Before the advent of wax candles in the 14th century, this office was said in the dark or with minimal lighting; and monks were expected to memorise everything. These services could be very long, sometimes lasting till dawn, but usually consisted of a chant, three antiphons, three psalms, and three lessons, along with celebrations of any local saints' days. Afterwards the monks would retire for a few hours of sleep and then rise at 6am to wash and attend the office of Prime. They then gathered in Chapter to receive instructions for the day and to attend to any judicial business. Then came private Mass or spiritual reading or work until 9am when the office of Terce was said, and then High Mass. At noon came the office of Sext and the midday meal. After a brief period of communal recreation, the monk could retire to rest until the office of None at 3pm. This was followed by farming and housekeeping work until after twilight, the evening prayer of Vespers at 6pm, then the night prayer of Compline at 9pm, and off to blessed bed before beginning the cycle again. In modern times, this timetable is often changed to accommodate any apostolate outside the monastic enclosure (e.g. the running of a school or parish)."

Meanwhile, Cehualli points out:

"Copal was burned for the Teteo almost constantly in the temples. Sahagun records in Book 2 of the Florentine Codex that the priests would offer incense nine times each day. Four of these times fell during the day, five came at night. The four during the day were when then sun first appeared, at breakfast, at noon, and when the sun was setting. The five times at night were when the sun had fully set, at bedtime, when the conch shell trumpets were blown, at midnight, and shortly before dawn."

These two have given me the first blush of an idea of what a hieromonastic temple-keeping day might look like:

**Midnight ("Matins"): app. 15-minute prayer to one of the mup gods (still werqing out who goes where)
**Sleep
**Shortly before dawn ("Lauds"): app. 15-minute prayer to one of the mup gods
**This is probably a good time for non-deity-centered daily practice, which I get largely from Andersonian F(a)eri(e) (kala, running pentacles, aligning the three souls, Flower Prayer, Ha Prayer), though things like meditation/zazen/sitting practice would also fit well here.
**Dawn ("Prime"): app. 15-minute prayer to one of the mup gods
**Private magick or spiritual reading or work of some sort
**Breakfast ("Terce"): app. 15-minute prayer EACH to two of the mup gods
**Celebration of appropriate specific holy days and/or rest/free time.
**Noon ("Sext"): app. 15-minute prayer EACH to two of the mup gods.
**Lunch
**Farming and housekeeping work.
**Sunset ("None"): app. 15-minute prayer EACH to two of the mup gods.
**This is probably a good time for non-deity-centered daily practice, which I get largely from Andersonian F(a)eri(e) (kala, running pentacles, aligning the three souls, Flower Prayer, Ha Prayer), though things like meditation/zazen/sitting practice would also fit well here.
**Full Dark ("Vespers"): app. 15-minute prayer EACH to two of the mup gods.
**Rest/free time.
**Bedtime ("Compline"): app. 15-minute prayer EACH to two of the mup gods.
**Sleep
**22:00 ("Quiquiztli"): app. 15-minute prayer to one of the mup gods.

It's just a thought, a first vagary of an idea that leaves out a few things -- rather important such as the need to react to community if ever anyone shows up unexpectedly, or the fact that my monasticism is not a renunciatory path (immanent divinity, remember, not transcendent) and so there will be a pull to go to outside events, or the multitude of traditions I am drawing from that I haven't included here.

But it's a start.
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So, following the advice of the tree, I finally looked into GA (General Assistance). It's not gonna work. There's a $1000 cap on personal property, it maxes out at about $350 a month, it's a loan, and, if you're employable, you can only get it three months out of the year.

Sigh.

Nonetheless, I'm thinking out what I need to do. I've heard food stamps is real easy to obtain and that maxes out at $200 a month. I've already been working for one friend (mayamaia), "editing" her poetry (currently consisting of me going through her LJ and pulling out all the poems I can find. She's paying me $60 a month for 3 hours of work. Another friend has offered $100 a month (plus transportation and some small, maybe fastfood, meal -- once a week) for 12 and a half hours of cleaning their apartment. I feel like another couple friendly under-the-table gigs and maybe TaskRabbit or something and I could totally make it work, living in a tent next to my temple. What do y'all think?

And then there's the thought of running an IndieGoGo or Kickstarter (or, hell, Offbeatr, if we're getting into hierodulic or sex magick scenarios) to fund the temple. I'm rather fond of the idea of Patreon, also, though what units would I use (per ritual? per month? per altar?). These ideas, I will admit, are a teensy bit scary for me, as I have little to no faith in my ability to sell or even explain my ideas and callings very well. I would adore help if anyone out there had any advice, pointers, or even willingness to sit down with me and werq it out.
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The nature of today

Today is Nahuimiquiztli Cecalli (4-Death 1-House) in the year Ometochtli (2-Rabbit). The Rabbit years of the South are relatively indifferent in Nahua conceptions; like the rabbit who hops to and fro, the Southern years can be good or bad at their whim.

Azteccalendar.com lists the following as the tonalli of this day:

Day Miquiztli (Death) is governed by Tecciztecatl, the Moon God, as its provider of tonalli (Shadow Soul) life energy. It is a good day for reflecting on your priorities in life, a bad day for ignoring possibilities. It is a day of transformation, signifying that briefest moment between old endings and new beginnings.

The thirteen day period (trecena) that starts with day 1-Calli (House) is ruled by Itzpapalotl. The 13 days of this trecena are governed by the conflict between culture and nature: the native desire of human beings to maintain a lineage of customs and beliefs is periodically disrupted by the evolutionary leaps of nature. In this sense, nature is represented as the house into which we are born and culture as the house into which we move. These are 13 days of struggling to decide which house is really home. With every step forward, the warrior still stands at the center of the crossroads: the heart must be trained if it is to be a reliable compass. These are good days to focus on the future; bad days to focus on the past.

Rob Breszny, meanwhile, says:

Boston's Museum of Fine Arts has a collection of Japanese art that is never on display. It consists of 6,600 wood-block prints created by artists of the ukiyo-e school, also known as "pictures of the floating world." Some are over 300 years old. They are tucked away in drawers and hidden from the light, ensuring that their vibrant colors won't fade. So they are well-preserved but rarely seen by anyone. Is there anything about you that resembles these pictures of the floating world, Cancerian? Do you keep parts of you secret, protecting them from what might happen if you show them to the world? It may be time to revise that policy. (Thanks to Molly Oldfield's The Secret Museum for the info referred to here.)

and AstroBarry puts in his two cents:

Sit tight for a moment, Cancer, and keep your lips zipped. The appearance of certain supposedly-squared-away circumstances now unraveling before your very eyes could be just that: an appearance. In other words, this is an especially bad time to judge the overall direction and/or the relative success of these latest proceedings. You're seeing only one angle among many, not a comprehensive outlook. That said, I'm not going to deny that this 'look of things' may well inspire a bit of understandable nervousness… and there's little you can presently say to any of the other players to substantively impact their shifting viewpoints, which have already begun to veer away from where you thought they'd settled. Re-read that last sentence, please, with emphasis on the 'little you can presently say' part. If you believe a few persuasive words-of-encouragement on your part will presently help your case, think again; if anything, they could have the opposite effect. Your best bet is to stick closest to those whose viewpoints haven't veered—whose loyalty and solidarity you can count on without thinking twice—and ride this out alongside them. At least you're not alone.

while Hernestus has this to say:

On Friday Retrograde Mercury backs up into perfect alignment with the Sun in the final degrees of Gemini. This is a good time for going back over old disputes and disagreements and to revise and review them in order to seek new ways to resolve them.

the Lunar Phase which we call the DENARIUS MOON in Antinous Moon Magic.

This the classic "Money Moon" of ancient lore. This is the best time to fulfill dreams for achieving the riches you have always sought ... and remember that "riches" are not counted in terms of money, but in terms of the wealth of love and warmth you give to others.

The Sagittarius Full Moon is the "lucky" moon of jovial excess and exuberant spending.

Each Lunar Phase represents a Divine Spirit or Archetype. The Spirit of the Denarius Moon is the Spirit of Wealth and Abundance. It is the embodiment of largesse and of all material and spiritual riches. It is the Spirit of Richness in all its many meanings.

It is symbolized by a Roman coin bearing the profile of Antinous. In ancient times, Antinous coin/medallions were prized by his worshipers as a sort of portable Sacred Token or Pocket Shrine.

In ancient times many followers of the Blessed Youth felt it was necessary to have a tangible representation of Antinous with them at all times for protection and for blessings.

The rich had small, light-weight traveling busts or bronzes made to accompany them on their journeys. Poor people made do with more crudely made representations, such as coins and figurines and medals made of lead, clay and other base materials.

People of modest means who were lucky enough to get their hands on one of his commemorative coins would carry it with them for protection, often even wearing them.

Many were pierced by holes and hung from the neck as talismans: Antinous' image offering protection against evil, sickness and death. Other such medallions were mounted in frames to adorn household altars, and others were buried with the dead to invoke the god's aid on the perilous journey into the unknown.

Meditations and rituals tonight are best suited for delving into matters concerning material wealth, as you might expect. But on a far more sublime level, this is an ideal night for delving into the true treasures in your life ... the things you value most.

SO WHAT THE FUCK DOES ALL THIS BULLSHIT MEAN?

So it's a day of transitions in a trecena (13-day period) of transitions, in which my work is to bring out all those hidden treasures of mine without getting mired in uncertainty around things I've thought settled (and specifically to not get involved trying to change people or preserve their viewpoints). However, I might find use in unsettling some settled scenarios that settled awkwardly. And, money and riches and treasures scenario lalala.

This does worry me a bit as today I move forward with one possibility for building a temple, sending a written proposal to the household that thought they might be interested in hosting it.

More importantly, though, I see a resolution of Rob and Barry's seeming contradiction above: this is a day to concentrate on bringing ME out, not on affecting OTHERS. Self-expression, not communication or persuasion. We'll have to see how all that goes today, as I have few real plans other than getting my estrogen shot at noon from a friend of mine.
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Today is Nahuimiquiztli Cecalli (4-Death 1-House) in the year Ometochtli (2-Rabbit). The Rabbit years of the South are relatively indifferent in Nahua conceptions; like the rabbit who hops to and fro, the Southern years can be good or bad at their whim.

Azteccalendar.com lists the following as the tonalli of this day:

Day Miquiztli (Death) is governed by Tecciztecatl, the Moon God, as its provider of tonalli (Shadow Soul) life energy. It is a good day for reflecting on your priorities in life, a bad day for ignoring possibilities. It is a day of transformation, signifying that briefest moment between old endings and new beginnings.

The thirteen day period (trecena) that starts with day 1-Calli (House) is ruled by Itzpapalotl. The 13 days of this trecena are governed by the conflict between culture and nature: the native desire of human beings to maintain a lineage of customs and beliefs is periodically disrupted by the evolutionary leaps of nature. In this sense, nature is represented as the house into which we are born and culture as the house into which we move. These are 13 days of struggling to decide which house is really home. With every step forward, the warrior still stands at the center of the crossroads: the heart must be trained if it is to be a reliable compass. These are good days to focus on the future; bad days to focus on the past.

Rob Breszny, meanwhile, says:

Boston's Museum of Fine Arts has a collection of Japanese art that is never on display. It consists of 6,600 wood-block prints created by artists of the ukiyo-e school, also known as "pictures of the floating world." Some are over 300 years old. They are tucked away in drawers and hidden from the light, ensuring that their vibrant colors won't fade. So they are well-preserved but rarely seen by anyone. Is there anything about you that resembles these pictures of the floating world, Cancerian? Do you keep parts of you secret, protecting them from what might happen if you show them to the world? It may be time to revise that policy. (Thanks to Molly Oldfield's The Secret Museum for the info referred to here.)

and AstroBarry puts in his two cents:

Sit tight for a moment, Cancer, and keep your lips zipped. The appearance of certain supposedly-squared-away circumstances now unraveling before your very eyes could be just that: an appearance. In other words, this is an especially bad time to judge the overall direction and/or the relative success of these latest proceedings. You're seeing only one angle among many, not a comprehensive outlook. That said, I'm not going to deny that this 'look of things' may well inspire a bit of understandable nervousness… and there's little you can presently say to any of the other players to substantively impact their shifting viewpoints, which have already begun to veer away from where you thought they'd settled. Re-read that last sentence, please, with emphasis on the 'little you can presently say' part. If you believe a few persuasive words-of-encouragement on your part will presently help your case, think again; if anything, they could have the opposite effect. Your best bet is to stick closest to those whose viewpoints haven't veered—whose loyalty and solidarity you can count on without thinking twice—and ride this out alongside them. At least you're not alone.

while Hernestus has this to say:

On Friday Retrograde Mercury backs up into perfect alignment with the Sun in the final degrees of Gemini. This is a good time for going back over old disputes and disagreements and to revise and review them in order to seek new ways to resolve them.

the Lunar Phase which we call the DENARIUS MOON in Antinous Moon Magic.

This the classic "Money Moon" of ancient lore. This is the best time to fulfill dreams for achieving the riches you have always sought ... and remember that "riches" are not counted in terms of money, but in terms of the wealth of love and warmth you give to others.

The Sagittarius Full Moon is the "lucky" moon of jovial excess and exuberant spending.

Each Lunar Phase represents a Divine Spirit or Archetype. The Spirit of the Denarius Moon is the Spirit of Wealth and Abundance. It is the embodiment of largesse and of all material and spiritual riches. It is the Spirit of Richness in all its many meanings.

It is symbolized by a Roman coin bearing the profile of Antinous. In ancient times, Antinous coin/medallions were prized by his worshipers as a sort of portable Sacred Token or Pocket Shrine.

In ancient times many followers of the Blessed Youth felt it was necessary to have a tangible representation of Antinous with them at all times for protection and for blessings.

The rich had small, light-weight traveling busts or bronzes made to accompany them on their journeys. Poor people made do with more crudely made representations, such as coins and figurines and medals made of lead, clay and other base materials.

People of modest means who were lucky enough to get their hands on one of his commemorative coins would carry it with them for protection, often even wearing them.

Many were pierced by holes and hung from the neck as talismans: Antinous' image offering protection against evil, sickness and death. Other such medallions were mounted in frames to adorn household altars, and others were buried with the dead to invoke the god's aid on the perilous journey into the unknown.

Meditations and rituals tonight are best suited for delving into matters concerning material wealth, as you might expect. But on a far more sublime level, this is an ideal night for delving into the true treasures in your life ... the things you value most.

SO WHAT THE FUCK DOES ALL THIS BULLSHIT MEAN?

So it's a day of transitions in a trecena (13-day period) of transitions, in which my work is to bring out all those hidden treasures of mine without getting mired in uncertainty around things I've thought settled (and specifically to not get involved trying to change people or preserve their viewpoints). However, I might find use in unsettling some settled scenarios that settled awkwardly. And, money and riches and treasures scenario lalala.

This does worry me a bit as today I move forward with one possibility for building a temple, sending a written proposal to the household that thought they might be interested in hosting it.

More importantly, though, I see a resolution of Rob and Barry's seeming contradiction above: this is a day to concentrate on bringing ME out, not on affecting OTHERS. Self-expression, not communication or persuasion. We'll have to see how all that goes today, as I have few real plans other than getting my estrogen shot at noon from a friend of mine.
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Asking for help

I just got back (last night) from Naraya. Naraya is a highly intentional gathering, gate-kept by several (in this case) Fairies who are wonderful at working with the individual dancers to refine and empower their intentions. My intention this year came clear to me way back in December of last year, if not in August, as a direct result of last year's ("I dance in right relationship with desire in every moment").

This year, I danced my temple-keeper.

A lot of people seemed to lack understanding of what that meant, as if temples and the monastic keeping thereof were too distant from both our standard life in civ (the city, the make-believe world) and from their anarcho-primitivist ideal (successfully embodied -- which several of my friends have -- or not) to even conceive. My gate-keeping was a far cry from the two-hour conversations I had grown accustomed to; it took barely ten minutes and consisted almost entirely of slight word-changes to ensure more powerful magick. This gentleness seemed to emanate throughout the dance for me, which was shockingly absent the physical and emotional strain I expected.

I believe that I heard two things from the Tree of Life during the dance (OK, more like two-and-a-half or three). The first is to not be scared and to go for the gusto in an act of surrender. One scenario I had been playing with prior to the dance for keeping a temple was to build one at my friend Melody Sage's house (they've shown interest in that and are asking for a written proposal) and pitching a tent next to it. If it works out the way it might, I might be able to fulfill my needs with General Assistance and food stamps. If I can do that, then I can jump directly into building and tending the temple as my full-time monastic practice; performing the nine prayers a day and other such monastic practices I might like would also be easier, as would accommodating any community members who might have need of the temple for their personal work. The Tree of Life told me to not be scared and to go for as extreme a possibility as that.

"Don't be scared: she's hungry." That's the half-to-one additional thing I heard the Tree of Life say to me. It's the most difficult to understand, though the next thing is the most difficult to follow through on. In many ways, it seems to relate to my Tlazolteotl work, which is strong for me both at Wolf Creek Radical Fairy Sanctuary and also at that dance, as she is Nahua/Aztec (Huasteca, actually) and Shoshone (the eponymous language spoken by the nation from whom the dance originates) is the northernmost Uto-Aztecan language. She is the Shit-Eater (Tlaelquani) and she ate some shit through me at the dance, that much is for certain. And when I imagined using that phrase as an anchor, during a scenario on Deep Re-entry held by one of the elders of the dance, it helped turn situations around such that I saw people's oppositions to my work as shit (tlazolli) to be honored as holy rather than obstacles to enrage me and saw my own probable moments of despair and anger and tlazolli as offerings and prayers to be built into the temple. Holy. Still, the phrase seems larger than all of that and larger than Tlazolteotl. Still not sure how, though.

Finally, I come to the point of this post: If I listen broadly and deeply, I hear through the mouths not of the tree but of my fellow dancers that keeping a temple flows from keeping the temple-keeper. That is: I heard a recurring refrain that I ought do all that I do for others and for my community for myself. That as much as I seek to serve the community, I serve myself; as much as I seek to appreciate and honor the community, I appreciate and honor myself; that as much as I seek to gift to the community, that I gift to myself; that as much as I seek to beautify the community, I beautify myself; that as much as I hold space for others with compassionate listening and deep witnessing, that I hold space for myself with compassionate listening and deep witnessing; that everything I do for those around me, I do for myself. Problem is: I have no clue how to do that. Hell, I'm losing sight by the moment as the shitty and its concrete buildings all pushed up against one another smother me again of all the things I do for others/my community! So, I ask y'all to pleasepleaseplease help: Help me find those things I do for the community and for others and help me figure out how to do them for myself. My hands are empty and I would change myself to rise to the demands of my calling.
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My plans for the day are mostly to sit at Arbor Cafe again, with my new Chromebook (thank you, Sir!), working on various things. At some point, possibly as early as 15:00, I plan to switch venues and travel across the Great Water to Wicked Grounds. Why? They're hosting a Humiliation Munch focusing especially on objectification, and I plan to be there.

Looking at the various tonalli and horoscopes of the day (below), I find a pretty string resonance throughout most of them, one of rolling up my sleeves, squatting down, and doing the hard sweaty work to transform all my tlazolli (my vice, my fear, my shame, my guilt, my literal shit) into compost. To stop spewing bullshit and start turning it and tending it so that it can fertilize my coming glory.

Some of that tlazolli, as AstroBarry seems to address, is one that has been coming up really strongly during this trecena (dedicated to my Mommy/Coworker/Love Tlazolteotl) -- I have difficulty listening sometimes, just allowing things to happen and not trying to force anything. There are numerous friends I have skirted relational disaster with recently by being too declarative and not questioning enough. Time to leverage my submissiveness, eh, Barry? Time to be of service.

The tonalli of today, Mahtlactliomometochtli Ceollin (12-Rabbit 1-Motion): Day Tochtli (Rabbit) is governed by Mayahuel, Goddess of the Maguey and of Fertility, as its provider of tonalli (Shadow Soul) life energy. Tochtli is a day of self-sacrifice and service to something greater than oneself. It signifies the religious attitude which holds everything sacred and results in experiences of self-transcendence. It is a mystical day, associated by the passages of the moon. It is a good day for communing with nature and spirit, a bad day for acting against others.

The thirteen day period (trecena) that starts with day 1-Ollin (Movement) is ruled by Tlazolteotl. This trecena is governed by the goddess of cotton and weaving, of sexuality and childbirth, she who is the eater of sins: it is the sign of the Scavenger, who feeds not on power but on the ills that darken the heart. The rainbow serpent, symbol of pleasure and folly, levitates amidst a shroud of smoke and shadow: these are 13 days of stolen secrets and odd twists of fate. The earth itself shakes: the ills created by shock can sometimes only be cured by greater shock. These are good days for self-purification; bad days for self-gratification.

And if we ask Ἀντίνοος Lunadeus? On Monday the new work week gets off to a power-filled start when ANTINOUS THE MOON GOD is in a 90-degree right angle to Venus. This aspect boosts self-confidence and determination to down to productive work.

But Rob Breszny says . . . When I slip into a meditative state and seek insight about your future, I have a reverie about a hearty sapling growing out of a fallen tree that's rotting on the forest floor. I see exuberant mushrooms sprouting from a cowpie in a pasture. I imagine compost nourishing a watermelon patch. So what do my visions mean? I'm guessing you're going through a phase of metaphorical death and decay. You are shedding and purging and flushing. In the process, you are preparing some top-notch fertilizer. It won't be ready for a while, but when it is, a growth spurt will begin.

<a href="www.astrobarry.com>And finally, AstroBarry!</a> Under risk of impending Mercury-retrograde hijinks—he flips to backward motion in your sign, Cancer, this coming Saturday (Jun 7)—I urge you treat all your 'certainties' and 'conclusions' as provisional and contingent upon what happens during the remainder of June. As I covered last week, this is especially helpful to remember when it comes to what you're putting out there. It's far easier to change your mind if you haven't publicized what you thought you'd already decided. Therefore, your outward behavior is best funneled into continuing to support whichever friends or colleagues have proven themselves to be 'in it for the long haul'… letting them set the agenda, going along for their adventure, sticking around to carry the extra bags or tidy up the site, happily serving those bonds of allegiance that go decidedly both ways. As far as your own still-uncertain or not-quite-concluded considerations are concerned, let's put it this way: Your intuition really is giving you a good idea of which direction to head right away, but you can't be sure what you'll find when you get there. It could be that magical green door… or merely a clue, instructing you to return to where you just came from… or a fork-in-the-road branching into multiple paths. Take one step at a time, then, so retreat won't be too inconvenient, should it come to that.
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Give me a Poetry Dare for National Poetry Month

So, I think I'm gonna take a page out of my friend alfrecht's page and combine two awesome things in my life: poetry and spirit.

April is National Poetry Month, and many poets in my community celebrate said month by doing a 30/30, the verse equivalent of National Novel Writing Month. In other words, they write 30 poems in 30 days. I'm also getting back into my Book of Days project, in which I work to celebrate festivals and holidays from a wide variety of traditions and religions, all of which feed into the religion I've been creating, mup. The union of the two (inspired, as I said, by alfrecht and eir book The Phillupic Hymns suggested it to myself recently: I will write poems inspired by and for and about the deities and holidays being honored each day!

When alfrecht embarked on the two periods of devotional poetry-writing that became the afore-mentioned book, e asked eir friends on Livejournal for poetry dares, which e then wrote; my dare was poem for Hermekate through the lens of Erato and e rose to the occasion quite admirably! I think that I shall do the same.

What kind of poems do you think I should write? Give me a form, a genre, a topic, a voice, a mood, a tone, and I will write it!

My liturgical calendar, as it were can be found here.

When alfecht did this all those years ago, e did so through the lens of the Muses. If you need inspiration for your dares, I'm posting much of eir post from back then for you to see:

Now, here's the Muses:
Kalliope: epic/heroic poetry
Klio: history
Erato: erotic/love poetry, marriage songs, dance
Euterpe: music and lyric poetry
Melpomene: tragedy
Polyhymnia: storytelling, oratory/rhetoric, sacred songs
Terpsichore: choral songs/dances
Thaleia: comedy/bucolic poetry
Ourania: astronomy/astrology

And here's some clarifications if some of these things come about:
For Klio, I will try and base the resulting poem on some mythic or mytho-historical event in which the deity was involved, whether traditional and legendary or totally new.

For Ourania, I will try and connect the deity to some celestial occurrence, constellation myth, or what have you.

And most of the others should be fairly obvious...

Now, I would ask you to not be mean: for example, if you decide to give me Abraxas and Erato, then I can't really guarantee that something "good" is going to come from that--I'm going to have to make up some situation where Abraxas is gettin' it on with some other deity, and (in the Eddie Izzard mode), it might end up being someone like Galadriel...So, please do this in a spirit of NOT BEING MEAN!!! Your humble poet thanks you for your indulgence in this regard!

Right, a little later, I'll post the first five poems (I wrote ten last night/today!), which are to: The Muses, Vesta, Venus, Roma, and Wepwawet. (Yes, you'll notice since my earlier post for the opt-in filter, the deities have multiplied considerably...What can I do? It would be rather inhospitable to refuse them!)

And, I'd ask one more thing: if you're going to do this, do it today, unless it's a deity that is more toward the end of the list, so that I'll have time to prepare! (If you're going to do the April 22 ones, get them in soon, as I'll be starting work on them in the near future!)
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Looking for players to play the RPG _Scion_, a game about playing the children of the gods in a mode

I happen to be a pretentious fuck. Which mostly means that, given Zak Sabbath’s very good points at http://dndwithpornstars.blogspot.com/2014/03/beauty-vs-fun.html, I basically really enjoy specifying what kind of beauty I’d like to include at the beginning rather than letting it develop organically in play and enjoy even more discussing said beauty in the abstract -- yeah; I’m a pretentious fuck. Give me a break, willya? I was weaned on White Wolf’s pre-Justin Achilli heyday!

Speaking of White Wolf Game Studios, I also happen to have wanted to play the RPG _Scion_ for a very long time. However, despite my love of and religious work with the mythologies of cultures throughout time and/or space, I had trouble seeing what I could do with the game. That is, _Scion_ seemed inert to me, a cute idea, a cool concept, a thing which was awesome in and of itself and should have had me frothing at the mouth with ideas for characters and games but didn’t.

Luckily, that has all changed! I have had . . . drumroll, please . . . AN IDEA!

Of course, it’s an idea that might be a little bit intense, so perhaps I should say it now: there might be triggers in the game and maybe even in this description or the links I provide, mostly around misogyny, the oppression of women, and (possibly) child abuse.

Yeah, I wanna explore some pretty serious shit with this campaign. The idea came to me as I was reading this article: http://www.theguardian.com/global-development-professionals-network/2014/mar/05/india-hinduism-goddesses-feminism-global-development. I immediately experienced a bubbling eruption of questions (many of which are asked below) about religion and culture and the religious projects of myself and others. It’s one of my single favorite things to have read on the internet just for that. It wasn’t until I followed a link to another article (http://www.buzzfeed.com/regajha/indias-incredibly-powerful-abused-goddesses-campaign-condemn) that I thought of _Scion_ however.

I would like to explore at least some of the following questions in a _Scion_ game, if I can find a group willing to do so. I would like at the very least two players and could probably handle up to four, MAYBE five. My life is a little busy at the moment, so I’m thinking a biweekly or maybe even monthly game. In the case of the latter, though, longer sessions of 6-8 hours might be preferrable.

Does a religion honoring goddesses lend itself to/create a culture that honors women and thus treats them well? Does this change if the goddesses are honored as part of a pantheon alongside gods (as in many Hinduisms) or as supreme over gods/the only form of divinity (as in many Euro-American Goddess spiritualities)? This can be read as asking if the entire feminist spirituality movement has any real hope of achieving its goals and can be generalized into other identity-based movements (race identity religions like the Lost-Found Nation of Islam, gay/queer spiritualities like some Radical Fairies’, etc.)
If one is creating a religion, how does one decide if that religion is proscriptive or descriptive as regards the structure of society and the place of people within it? Why does one choose the option they choose?
Can the subaltern speak?
In pointing at a real injustice in another culture, can members of a different culture erase historical and present states/forms of equality and justice in that culture? (think white feminists and Islamic modesty garb or female circumcision)
Can that which is empowering for one person be disempowering for another who shares the relevant identity? How does colonialism play into this difference, if at all?
What happens when members of an outside culture are driven inescapably to act against what they perceive to be an injustice in another, without regard for (or, likely, knowledge of) the ripple-consequences of their action? If we are utilizing a virtue ethics, how can we fault or criticize them for doing so? Whose virtues determine the moral rightness of actions taken in this situation? What if the victim wants the help? What if e doesn’t?
Can that which is degrading, disgusting, or unjust be holy? What does that mean? How does that then affect or create our understanding of the world and our behavior? If one is creating a religion, how does one decide what to honor and what to exclude? Is there a reason to honor that which we find repugnant? Is there value in leaving all that is repugnant out of one’s new religion? What are the consequences of each?
What could drive a goddess into an abusive relationship? What does that say about how we in the modern/post-modern USA treat the divine, however we experience or construct it?
Does making some concept or thing central to one’s religious system (such as unconditional love in many Christianities or nature in many neopaganisms) compel one to embody/respect/protect the concept or thing or does it absolve you of that responsibility (“God’s got that covered”/”I’ve done enough by means of ritual”)?

_Scion_ is a highly hackable game, and I welcome scions of any god or god-like being players wish and can make a case for, as well as for other player-created additions to the game or non-scion character ideas. I am certainly a special-snowflake kind of player (my first three RPG characters ever were each half-dragons, culminating in a half-mercury dragon for Paladine’s sake!) and so like to run a game that’s welcoming to others like myself. And. I am running this as a _Scion_ game for a reason, so let’s all just keep an eye on our thematic goals as we create our special snowflakes, k?

Wanna play?

For further inspiration:
Religious prostitution: http://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2011/jan/21/devadasi-india-sex-work-religion
Colonialism reading gender equality/matriarchy as the oppression of women: “The Tale of Old Venn” in Samuel Delany’s _Tales of Neveryon_
Cross-dressing to honor a woman-protecting goddess: http://www.thehindu.com/todays-paper/tp-national/tp-andhrapradesh/all-set-for-gangamma-jatara/article4685238.ece
Gayatri Spivak’s “Can the Subaltern Speak?”
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ATTN: Trans* pagans

Myself and two or three others are looking for partners in a working honoring and bringing the Tetrad++, a new group of trans* gods (more info at http://aediculaantinoi.wordpress.com/2011/11/20/god….

The Tetrad++ are:
Panpsyche, who is MtF
Panhyle, who is FtM
Paneros, who is non-gendered
Pancrates, who is pan-gendered
Paneris, who is gender-fluid
Panprosdexia, who is a-gendered

We have folk already interested in bringing Panprosdexia, Paneris, and Paneros (though the last is open to a little debate, and could possibly bring Pancrates). Are any of ya'll interested in working this ritual? No prior experience of or familiarity with or even knowledge of the Tetrad++ is required, though it is welcome.
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What does my paganism look like in 50 years?

Patheos Pagan asked this question via Facebook. It turns out, I have opinions. Who knew?

A more representative sampling of races in the movement as a whole. I know many pagans of color and yet wherever I look in the more . . . institutional or voice-amplifying elements of the community, such as Pantheacon, I see far more white people than in the general population (or at least, the general population of San Jose and Oakland, the two cities where I have made my home). White people (like me): that means we need to do some fucking hard work and invite some scary-ass demons and shadows over for tea.

Getting over our myopia and self-involvement. By which I mean, growing up. By which I mean, living up to the social justice implications and culture-creating responsibility of our various theologies (pantheism, immanent divinity, bountiful animism, apotheosis, et cetera) by developing a strong network of services for a wide variety of situations of need - soup kitchens, homeless shelters, old folks' homes, hospitals/clinics, et cetera, et cetera - and innovating new structures for creating and enacting those that resist power-over, hierarchical, hyper-individualist, capitalist structures while remaining embodied spells founded in our ontologies and values at a radical and structural level. Recognizing that we can bring pagan perspectives and powers to bear in creating secular priest/esshoods working to honor and tend the cultures and organizations we walk throughout the world in, and DEMANDING that that work be honored by the overculture, without turning it into a pseudo-secular holier-than-thou assertion of our religions.

Resisting the desire and push to mainstream and assimilate. Not only honoring our own paths, but honoring those under the pagan umbrella that confuse or throw us off, and uncompromisingly demanding that the rest of our overculture respect and honor them as well. WITHOUT CHANGE. Taking a special stance for the outsiders, the freaks, the mystics, the hermits, the wise crazy ones, the witches (see what I did there?) that they -- we -- are holy and important and must be accepted as full members of society or as much so as they wish/need for their work as they are.

A wide variety of temples and organizations scattered densely throughout the land, as various in size as those of the classical world. So: everything from the grand temples of the Forum Romana with multiple colleges of priests to the Nile-side shrine of Osiris-That Random Peasant Dude Who Drowned In The Nile with maybe -- MAYBE -- a single, part-time priest. And I want these temples to be even more varied in style and type and work as they are in size. And I want them fully and truly self-defined with support from the greater community. Maybe there is a specific priest/esshood out there who's work is the go-between work necessary to mimic the benefits of grand monolithic structures such as many Christianities have.

Recognizing that "paganism" is a useful concept and not just in some sort of cynical, policy-writing kind of way. There truly is a pagan community and it is important. BUT IT IS NOT A RELIGION and, ultimately, has little meaning in and of itself. Within the paganism community are manymanymany religions that are vastly and fundamentally different. And there are many people who work multiple of those religions at the same time. And there are many people who focus laser-like on only a single one and cannot/will not participate in others. And that's okay. And everyone's paganism is different for a hell of alot of reasons. Third-wave feminisms have responded to a similar situation by pluralizing the word feminism. Maybe we should start pluralizing paganisms . . .