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    Saturday, June 21st, 2014
    11:12 am
    Quoting Wikipedia is dangerous, I know (even if it is the only word I know of which marries Hawai'ian and Greek roots to mean "quick education"), but here we go:

    "Traditionally, the daily life of the Benedictine revolved around the eight canonical hours. The monastic timetable or Horarium would begin at midnight with the service, or "office", of Matins (today also called the Office of Readings), followed by the morning office of Lauds at 3am. Before the advent of wax candles in the 14th century, this office was said in the dark or with minimal lighting; and monks were expected to memorise everything. These services could be very long, sometimes lasting till dawn, but usually consisted of a chant, three antiphons, three psalms, and three lessons, along with celebrations of any local saints' days. Afterwards the monks would retire for a few hours of sleep and then rise at 6am to wash and attend the office of Prime. They then gathered in Chapter to receive instructions for the day and to attend to any judicial business. Then came private Mass or spiritual reading or work until 9am when the office of Terce was said, and then High Mass. At noon came the office of Sext and the midday meal. After a brief period of communal recreation, the monk could retire to rest until the office of None at 3pm. This was followed by farming and housekeeping work until after twilight, the evening prayer of Vespers at 6pm, then the night prayer of Compline at 9pm, and off to blessed bed before beginning the cycle again. In modern times, this timetable is often changed to accommodate any apostolate outside the monastic enclosure (e.g. the running of a school or parish)."

    Meanwhile, Cehualli points out:

    "Copal was burned for the Teteo almost constantly in the temples. Sahagun records in Book 2 of the Florentine Codex that the priests would offer incense nine times each day. Four of these times fell during the day, five came at night. The four during the day were when then sun first appeared, at breakfast, at noon, and when the sun was setting. The five times at night were when the sun had fully set, at bedtime, when the conch shell trumpets were blown, at midnight, and shortly before dawn."

    These two have given me the first blush of an idea of what a hieromonastic temple-keeping day might look like:

    **Midnight ("Matins"): app. 15-minute prayer to one of the mup gods (still werqing out who goes where)
    **Sleep
    **Shortly before dawn ("Lauds"): app. 15-minute prayer to one of the mup gods
    **This is probably a good time for non-deity-centered daily practice, which I get largely from Andersonian F(a)eri(e) (kala, running pentacles, aligning the three souls, Flower Prayer, Ha Prayer), though things like meditation/zazen/sitting practice would also fit well here.
    **Dawn ("Prime"): app. 15-minute prayer to one of the mup gods
    **Private magick or spiritual reading or work of some sort
    **Breakfast ("Terce"): app. 15-minute prayer EACH to two of the mup gods
    **Celebration of appropriate specific holy days and/or rest/free time.
    **Noon ("Sext"): app. 15-minute prayer EACH to two of the mup gods.
    **Lunch
    **Farming and housekeeping work.
    **Sunset ("None"): app. 15-minute prayer EACH to two of the mup gods.
    **This is probably a good time for non-deity-centered daily practice, which I get largely from Andersonian F(a)eri(e) (kala, running pentacles, aligning the three souls, Flower Prayer, Ha Prayer), though things like meditation/zazen/sitting practice would also fit well here.
    **Full Dark ("Vespers"): app. 15-minute prayer EACH to two of the mup gods.
    **Rest/free time.
    **Bedtime ("Compline"): app. 15-minute prayer EACH to two of the mup gods.
    **Sleep
    **22:00 ("Quiquiztli"): app. 15-minute prayer to one of the mup gods.

    It's just a thought, a first vagary of an idea that leaves out a few things -- rather important such as the need to react to community if ever anyone shows up unexpectedly, or the fact that my monasticism is not a renunciatory path (immanent divinity, remember, not transcendent) and so there will be a pull to go to outside events, or the multitude of traditions I am drawing from that I haven't included here.

    But it's a start.
    Friday, June 20th, 2014
    8:30 pm
    So, following the advice of the tree, I finally looked into GA (General Assistance). It's not gonna work. There's a $1000 cap on personal property, it maxes out at about $350 a month, it's a loan, and, if you're employable, you can only get it three months out of the year.

    Sigh.

    Nonetheless, I'm thinking out what I need to do. I've heard food stamps is real easy to obtain and that maxes out at $200 a month. I've already been working for one friend (mayamaia), "editing" her poetry (currently consisting of me going through her LJ and pulling out all the poems I can find. She's paying me $60 a month for 3 hours of work. Another friend has offered $100 a month (plus transportation and some small, maybe fastfood, meal -- once a week) for 12 and a half hours of cleaning their apartment. I feel like another couple friendly under-the-table gigs and maybe TaskRabbit or something and I could totally make it work, living in a tent next to my temple. What do y'all think?

    And then there's the thought of running an IndieGoGo or Kickstarter (or, hell, Offbeatr, if we're getting into hierodulic or sex magick scenarios) to fund the temple. I'm rather fond of the idea of Patreon, also, though what units would I use (per ritual? per month? per altar?). These ideas, I will admit, are a teensy bit scary for me, as I have little to no faith in my ability to sell or even explain my ideas and callings very well. I would adore help if anyone out there had any advice, pointers, or even willingness to sit down with me and werq it out.
    9:16 am
    The nature of today
    Today is Nahuimiquiztli Cecalli (4-Death 1-House) in the year Ometochtli (2-Rabbit). The Rabbit years of the South are relatively indifferent in Nahua conceptions; like the rabbit who hops to and fro, the Southern years can be good or bad at their whim.

    Azteccalendar.com lists the following as the tonalli of this day:

    Day Miquiztli (Death) is governed by Tecciztecatl, the Moon God, as its provider of tonalli (Shadow Soul) life energy. It is a good day for reflecting on your priorities in life, a bad day for ignoring possibilities. It is a day of transformation, signifying that briefest moment between old endings and new beginnings.

    The thirteen day period (trecena) that starts with day 1-Calli (House) is ruled by Itzpapalotl. The 13 days of this trecena are governed by the conflict between culture and nature: the native desire of human beings to maintain a lineage of customs and beliefs is periodically disrupted by the evolutionary leaps of nature. In this sense, nature is represented as the house into which we are born and culture as the house into which we move. These are 13 days of struggling to decide which house is really home. With every step forward, the warrior still stands at the center of the crossroads: the heart must be trained if it is to be a reliable compass. These are good days to focus on the future; bad days to focus on the past.

    Rob Breszny, meanwhile, says:

    Boston's Museum of Fine Arts has a collection of Japanese art that is never on display. It consists of 6,600 wood-block prints created by artists of the ukiyo-e school, also known as "pictures of the floating world." Some are over 300 years old. They are tucked away in drawers and hidden from the light, ensuring that their vibrant colors won't fade. So they are well-preserved but rarely seen by anyone. Is there anything about you that resembles these pictures of the floating world, Cancerian? Do you keep parts of you secret, protecting them from what might happen if you show them to the world? It may be time to revise that policy. (Thanks to Molly Oldfield's The Secret Museum for the info referred to here.)

    and AstroBarry puts in his two cents:

    Sit tight for a moment, Cancer, and keep your lips zipped. The appearance of certain supposedly-squared-away circumstances now unraveling before your very eyes could be just that: an appearance. In other words, this is an especially bad time to judge the overall direction and/or the relative success of these latest proceedings. You're seeing only one angle among many, not a comprehensive outlook. That said, I'm not going to deny that this 'look of things' may well inspire a bit of understandable nervousness… and there's little you can presently say to any of the other players to substantively impact their shifting viewpoints, which have already begun to veer away from where you thought they'd settled. Re-read that last sentence, please, with emphasis on the 'little you can presently say' part. If you believe a few persuasive words-of-encouragement on your part will presently help your case, think again; if anything, they could have the opposite effect. Your best bet is to stick closest to those whose viewpoints haven't veered—whose loyalty and solidarity you can count on without thinking twice—and ride this out alongside them. At least you're not alone.

    while Hernestus has this to say:

    On Friday Retrograde Mercury backs up into perfect alignment with the Sun in the final degrees of Gemini. This is a good time for going back over old disputes and disagreements and to revise and review them in order to seek new ways to resolve them.

    the Lunar Phase which we call the DENARIUS MOON in Antinous Moon Magic.

    This the classic "Money Moon" of ancient lore. This is the best time to fulfill dreams for achieving the riches you have always sought ... and remember that "riches" are not counted in terms of money, but in terms of the wealth of love and warmth you give to others.

    The Sagittarius Full Moon is the "lucky" moon of jovial excess and exuberant spending.

    Each Lunar Phase represents a Divine Spirit or Archetype. The Spirit of the Denarius Moon is the Spirit of Wealth and Abundance. It is the embodiment of largesse and of all material and spiritual riches. It is the Spirit of Richness in all its many meanings.

    It is symbolized by a Roman coin bearing the profile of Antinous. In ancient times, Antinous coin/medallions were prized by his worshipers as a sort of portable Sacred Token or Pocket Shrine.

    In ancient times many followers of the Blessed Youth felt it was necessary to have a tangible representation of Antinous with them at all times for protection and for blessings.

    The rich had small, light-weight traveling busts or bronzes made to accompany them on their journeys. Poor people made do with more crudely made representations, such as coins and figurines and medals made of lead, clay and other base materials.

    People of modest means who were lucky enough to get their hands on one of his commemorative coins would carry it with them for protection, often even wearing them.

    Many were pierced by holes and hung from the neck as talismans: Antinous' image offering protection against evil, sickness and death. Other such medallions were mounted in frames to adorn household altars, and others were buried with the dead to invoke the god's aid on the perilous journey into the unknown.

    Meditations and rituals tonight are best suited for delving into matters concerning material wealth, as you might expect. But on a far more sublime level, this is an ideal night for delving into the true treasures in your life ... the things you value most.

    SO WHAT THE FUCK DOES ALL THIS BULLSHIT MEAN?

    So it's a day of transitions in a trecena (13-day period) of transitions, in which my work is to bring out all those hidden treasures of mine without getting mired in uncertainty around things I've thought settled (and specifically to not get involved trying to change people or preserve their viewpoints). However, I might find use in unsettling some settled scenarios that settled awkwardly. And, money and riches and treasures scenario lalala.

    This does worry me a bit as today I move forward with one possibility for building a temple, sending a written proposal to the household that thought they might be interested in hosting it.

    More importantly, though, I see a resolution of Rob and Barry's seeming contradiction above: this is a day to concentrate on bringing ME out, not on affecting OTHERS. Self-expression, not communication or persuasion. We'll have to see how all that goes today, as I have few real plans other than getting my estrogen shot at noon from a friend of mine.
    9:05 am
    Today is Nahuimiquiztli Cecalli (4-Death 1-House) in the year Ometochtli (2-Rabbit). The Rabbit years of the South are relatively indifferent in Nahua conceptions; like the rabbit who hops to and fro, the Southern years can be good or bad at their whim.

    Azteccalendar.com lists the following as the tonalli of this day:

    Day Miquiztli (Death) is governed by Tecciztecatl, the Moon God, as its provider of tonalli (Shadow Soul) life energy. It is a good day for reflecting on your priorities in life, a bad day for ignoring possibilities. It is a day of transformation, signifying that briefest moment between old endings and new beginnings.

    The thirteen day period (trecena) that starts with day 1-Calli (House) is ruled by Itzpapalotl. The 13 days of this trecena are governed by the conflict between culture and nature: the native desire of human beings to maintain a lineage of customs and beliefs is periodically disrupted by the evolutionary leaps of nature. In this sense, nature is represented as the house into which we are born and culture as the house into which we move. These are 13 days of struggling to decide which house is really home. With every step forward, the warrior still stands at the center of the crossroads: the heart must be trained if it is to be a reliable compass. These are good days to focus on the future; bad days to focus on the past.

    Rob Breszny, meanwhile, says:

    Boston's Museum of Fine Arts has a collection of Japanese art that is never on display. It consists of 6,600 wood-block prints created by artists of the ukiyo-e school, also known as "pictures of the floating world." Some are over 300 years old. They are tucked away in drawers and hidden from the light, ensuring that their vibrant colors won't fade. So they are well-preserved but rarely seen by anyone. Is there anything about you that resembles these pictures of the floating world, Cancerian? Do you keep parts of you secret, protecting them from what might happen if you show them to the world? It may be time to revise that policy. (Thanks to Molly Oldfield's The Secret Museum for the info referred to here.)

    and AstroBarry puts in his two cents:

    Sit tight for a moment, Cancer, and keep your lips zipped. The appearance of certain supposedly-squared-away circumstances now unraveling before your very eyes could be just that: an appearance. In other words, this is an especially bad time to judge the overall direction and/or the relative success of these latest proceedings. You're seeing only one angle among many, not a comprehensive outlook. That said, I'm not going to deny that this 'look of things' may well inspire a bit of understandable nervousness… and there's little you can presently say to any of the other players to substantively impact their shifting viewpoints, which have already begun to veer away from where you thought they'd settled. Re-read that last sentence, please, with emphasis on the 'little you can presently say' part. If you believe a few persuasive words-of-encouragement on your part will presently help your case, think again; if anything, they could have the opposite effect. Your best bet is to stick closest to those whose viewpoints haven't veered—whose loyalty and solidarity you can count on without thinking twice—and ride this out alongside them. At least you're not alone.

    while Hernestus has this to say:

    On Friday Retrograde Mercury backs up into perfect alignment with the Sun in the final degrees of Gemini. This is a good time for going back over old disputes and disagreements and to revise and review them in order to seek new ways to resolve them.

    the Lunar Phase which we call the DENARIUS MOON in Antinous Moon Magic.

    This the classic "Money Moon" of ancient lore. This is the best time to fulfill dreams for achieving the riches you have always sought ... and remember that "riches" are not counted in terms of money, but in terms of the wealth of love and warmth you give to others.

    The Sagittarius Full Moon is the "lucky" moon of jovial excess and exuberant spending.

    Each Lunar Phase represents a Divine Spirit or Archetype. The Spirit of the Denarius Moon is the Spirit of Wealth and Abundance. It is the embodiment of largesse and of all material and spiritual riches. It is the Spirit of Richness in all its many meanings.

    It is symbolized by a Roman coin bearing the profile of Antinous. In ancient times, Antinous coin/medallions were prized by his worshipers as a sort of portable Sacred Token or Pocket Shrine.

    In ancient times many followers of the Blessed Youth felt it was necessary to have a tangible representation of Antinous with them at all times for protection and for blessings.

    The rich had small, light-weight traveling busts or bronzes made to accompany them on their journeys. Poor people made do with more crudely made representations, such as coins and figurines and medals made of lead, clay and other base materials.

    People of modest means who were lucky enough to get their hands on one of his commemorative coins would carry it with them for protection, often even wearing them.

    Many were pierced by holes and hung from the neck as talismans: Antinous' image offering protection against evil, sickness and death. Other such medallions were mounted in frames to adorn household altars, and others were buried with the dead to invoke the god's aid on the perilous journey into the unknown.

    Meditations and rituals tonight are best suited for delving into matters concerning material wealth, as you might expect. But on a far more sublime level, this is an ideal night for delving into the true treasures in your life ... the things you value most.

    SO WHAT THE FUCK DOES ALL THIS BULLSHIT MEAN?

    So it's a day of transitions in a trecena (13-day period) of transitions, in which my work is to bring out all those hidden treasures of mine without getting mired in uncertainty around things I've thought settled (and specifically to not get involved trying to change people or preserve their viewpoints). However, I might find use in unsettling some settled scenarios that settled awkwardly. And, money and riches and treasures scenario lalala.

    This does worry me a bit as today I move forward with one possibility for building a temple, sending a written proposal to the household that thought they might be interested in hosting it.

    More importantly, though, I see a resolution of Rob and Barry's seeming contradiction above: this is a day to concentrate on bringing ME out, not on affecting OTHERS. Self-expression, not communication or persuasion. We'll have to see how all that goes today, as I have few real plans other than getting my estrogen shot at noon from a friend of mine.
    Thursday, June 19th, 2014
    12:07 pm
    Asking for help
    I just got back (last night) from Naraya. Naraya is a highly intentional gathering, gate-kept by several (in this case) Fairies who are wonderful at working with the individual dancers to refine and empower their intentions. My intention this year came clear to me way back in December of last year, if not in August, as a direct result of last year's ("I dance in right relationship with desire in every moment").

    This year, I danced my temple-keeper.

    A lot of people seemed to lack understanding of what that meant, as if temples and the monastic keeping thereof were too distant from both our standard life in civ (the city, the make-believe world) and from their anarcho-primitivist ideal (successfully embodied -- which several of my friends have -- or not) to even conceive. My gate-keeping was a far cry from the two-hour conversations I had grown accustomed to; it took barely ten minutes and consisted almost entirely of slight word-changes to ensure more powerful magick. This gentleness seemed to emanate throughout the dance for me, which was shockingly absent the physical and emotional strain I expected.

    I believe that I heard two things from the Tree of Life during the dance (OK, more like two-and-a-half or three). The first is to not be scared and to go for the gusto in an act of surrender. One scenario I had been playing with prior to the dance for keeping a temple was to build one at my friend Melody Sage's house (they've shown interest in that and are asking for a written proposal) and pitching a tent next to it. If it works out the way it might, I might be able to fulfill my needs with General Assistance and food stamps. If I can do that, then I can jump directly into building and tending the temple as my full-time monastic practice; performing the nine prayers a day and other such monastic practices I might like would also be easier, as would accommodating any community members who might have need of the temple for their personal work. The Tree of Life told me to not be scared and to go for as extreme a possibility as that.

    "Don't be scared: she's hungry." That's the half-to-one additional thing I heard the Tree of Life say to me. It's the most difficult to understand, though the next thing is the most difficult to follow through on. In many ways, it seems to relate to my Tlazolteotl work, which is strong for me both at Wolf Creek Radical Fairy Sanctuary and also at that dance, as she is Nahua/Aztec (Huasteca, actually) and Shoshone (the eponymous language spoken by the nation from whom the dance originates) is the northernmost Uto-Aztecan language. She is the Shit-Eater (Tlaelquani) and she ate some shit through me at the dance, that much is for certain. And when I imagined using that phrase as an anchor, during a scenario on Deep Re-entry held by one of the elders of the dance, it helped turn situations around such that I saw people's oppositions to my work as shit (tlazolli) to be honored as holy rather than obstacles to enrage me and saw my own probable moments of despair and anger and tlazolli as offerings and prayers to be built into the temple. Holy. Still, the phrase seems larger than all of that and larger than Tlazolteotl. Still not sure how, though.

    Finally, I come to the point of this post: If I listen broadly and deeply, I hear through the mouths not of the tree but of my fellow dancers that keeping a temple flows from keeping the temple-keeper. That is: I heard a recurring refrain that I ought do all that I do for others and for my community for myself. That as much as I seek to serve the community, I serve myself; as much as I seek to appreciate and honor the community, I appreciate and honor myself; that as much as I seek to gift to the community, that I gift to myself; that as much as I seek to beautify the community, I beautify myself; that as much as I hold space for others with compassionate listening and deep witnessing, that I hold space for myself with compassionate listening and deep witnessing; that everything I do for those around me, I do for myself. Problem is: I have no clue how to do that. Hell, I'm losing sight by the moment as the shitty and its concrete buildings all pushed up against one another smother me again of all the things I do for others/my community! So, I ask y'all to pleasepleaseplease help: Help me find those things I do for the community and for others and help me figure out how to do them for myself. My hands are empty and I would change myself to rise to the demands of my calling.
    Monday, June 2nd, 2014
    7:09 am
    My plans for the day are mostly to sit at Arbor Cafe again, with my new Chromebook (thank you, Sir!), working on various things. At some point, possibly as early as 15:00, I plan to switch venues and travel across the Great Water to Wicked Grounds. Why? They're hosting a Humiliation Munch focusing especially on objectification, and I plan to be there.

    Looking at the various tonalli and horoscopes of the day (below), I find a pretty string resonance throughout most of them, one of rolling up my sleeves, squatting down, and doing the hard sweaty work to transform all my tlazolli (my vice, my fear, my shame, my guilt, my literal shit) into compost. To stop spewing bullshit and start turning it and tending it so that it can fertilize my coming glory.

    Some of that tlazolli, as AstroBarry seems to address, is one that has been coming up really strongly during this trecena (dedicated to my Mommy/Coworker/Love Tlazolteotl) -- I have difficulty listening sometimes, just allowing things to happen and not trying to force anything. There are numerous friends I have skirted relational disaster with recently by being too declarative and not questioning enough. Time to leverage my submissiveness, eh, Barry? Time to be of service.

    The tonalli of today, Mahtlactliomometochtli Ceollin (12-Rabbit 1-Motion): Day Tochtli (Rabbit) is governed by Mayahuel, Goddess of the Maguey and of Fertility, as its provider of tonalli (Shadow Soul) life energy. Tochtli is a day of self-sacrifice and service to something greater than oneself. It signifies the religious attitude which holds everything sacred and results in experiences of self-transcendence. It is a mystical day, associated by the passages of the moon. It is a good day for communing with nature and spirit, a bad day for acting against others.

    The thirteen day period (trecena) that starts with day 1-Ollin (Movement) is ruled by Tlazolteotl. This trecena is governed by the goddess of cotton and weaving, of sexuality and childbirth, she who is the eater of sins: it is the sign of the Scavenger, who feeds not on power but on the ills that darken the heart. The rainbow serpent, symbol of pleasure and folly, levitates amidst a shroud of smoke and shadow: these are 13 days of stolen secrets and odd twists of fate. The earth itself shakes: the ills created by shock can sometimes only be cured by greater shock. These are good days for self-purification; bad days for self-gratification.

    And if we ask Ἀντίνοος Lunadeus? On Monday the new work week gets off to a power-filled start when ANTINOUS THE MOON GOD is in a 90-degree right angle to Venus. This aspect boosts self-confidence and determination to down to productive work.

    But Rob Breszny says . . . When I slip into a meditative state and seek insight about your future, I have a reverie about a hearty sapling growing out of a fallen tree that's rotting on the forest floor. I see exuberant mushrooms sprouting from a cowpie in a pasture. I imagine compost nourishing a watermelon patch. So what do my visions mean? I'm guessing you're going through a phase of metaphorical death and decay. You are shedding and purging and flushing. In the process, you are preparing some top-notch fertilizer. It won't be ready for a while, but when it is, a growth spurt will begin.

    <a href="www.astrobarry.com>And finally, AstroBarry!</a> Under risk of impending Mercury-retrograde hijinks—he flips to backward motion in your sign, Cancer, this coming Saturday (Jun 7)—I urge you treat all your 'certainties' and 'conclusions' as provisional and contingent upon what happens during the remainder of June. As I covered last week, this is especially helpful to remember when it comes to what you're putting out there. It's far easier to change your mind if you haven't publicized what you thought you'd already decided. Therefore, your outward behavior is best funneled into continuing to support whichever friends or colleagues have proven themselves to be 'in it for the long haul'… letting them set the agenda, going along for their adventure, sticking around to carry the extra bags or tidy up the site, happily serving those bonds of allegiance that go decidedly both ways. As far as your own still-uncertain or not-quite-concluded considerations are concerned, let's put it this way: Your intuition really is giving you a good idea of which direction to head right away, but you can't be sure what you'll find when you get there. It could be that magical green door… or merely a clue, instructing you to return to where you just came from… or a fork-in-the-road branching into multiple paths. Take one step at a time, then, so retreat won't be too inconvenient, should it come to that.
    Tuesday, April 1st, 2014
    6:45 pm
    Give me a Poetry Dare for National Poetry Month
    So, I think I'm gonna take a page out of my friend alfrecht's page and combine two awesome things in my life: poetry and spirit.

    April is National Poetry Month, and many poets in my community celebrate said month by doing a 30/30, the verse equivalent of National Novel Writing Month. In other words, they write 30 poems in 30 days. I'm also getting back into my Book of Days project, in which I work to celebrate festivals and holidays from a wide variety of traditions and religions, all of which feed into the religion I've been creating, mup. The union of the two (inspired, as I said, by alfrecht and eir book The Phillupic Hymns suggested it to myself recently: I will write poems inspired by and for and about the deities and holidays being honored each day!

    When alfrecht embarked on the two periods of devotional poetry-writing that became the afore-mentioned book, e asked eir friends on Livejournal for poetry dares, which e then wrote; my dare was poem for Hermekate through the lens of Erato and e rose to the occasion quite admirably! I think that I shall do the same.

    What kind of poems do you think I should write? Give me a form, a genre, a topic, a voice, a mood, a tone, and I will write it!

    My liturgical calendar, as it were can be found here.

    When did this all those years ago, e did so through the lens of the Muses. If you need inspiration for your dares, I'm posting much of eir post from back then for you to see:

    Now, here's the Muses:
    Kalliope: epic/heroic poetry
    Klio: history
    Erato: erotic/love poetry, marriage songs, dance
    Euterpe: music and lyric poetry
    Melpomene: tragedy
    Polyhymnia: storytelling, oratory/rhetoric, sacred songs
    Terpsichore: choral songs/dances
    Thaleia: comedy/bucolic poetry
    Ourania: astronomy/astrology

    And here's some clarifications if some of these things come about:
    For Klio, I will try and base the resulting poem on some mythic or mytho-historical event in which the deity was involved, whether traditional and legendary or totally new.

    For Ourania, I will try and connect the deity to some celestial occurrence, constellation myth, or what have you.

    And most of the others should be fairly obvious...

    Now, I would ask you to not be mean: for example, if you decide to give me Abraxas and Erato, then I can't really guarantee that something "good" is going to come from that--I'm going to have to make up some situation where Abraxas is gettin' it on with some other deity, and (in the Eddie Izzard mode), it might end up being someone like Galadriel...So, please do this in a spirit of NOT BEING MEAN!!! Your humble poet thanks you for your indulgence in this regard!

    Right, a little later, I'll post the first five poems (I wrote ten last night/today!), which are to: The Muses, Vesta, Venus, Roma, and Wepwawet. (Yes, you'll notice since my earlier post for the opt-in filter, the deities have multiplied considerably...What can I do? It would be rather inhospitable to refuse them!)

    And, I'd ask one more thing: if you're going to do this, do it today, unless it's a deity that is more toward the end of the list, so that I'll have time to prepare! (If you're going to do the April 22 ones, get them in soon, as I'll be starting work on them in the near future!)
    Saturday, March 22nd, 2014
    11:04 pm
    Looking for players to play the RPG _Scion_, a game about playing the children of the gods in a mode
    I happen to be a pretentious fuck. Which mostly means that, given Zak Sabbath’s very good points at http://dndwithpornstars.blogspot.com/2014/03/beauty-vs-fun.html, I basically really enjoy specifying what kind of beauty I’d like to include at the beginning rather than letting it develop organically in play and enjoy even more discussing said beauty in the abstract -- yeah; I’m a pretentious fuck. Give me a break, willya? I was weaned on White Wolf’s pre-Justin Achilli heyday!

    Speaking of White Wolf Game Studios, I also happen to have wanted to play the RPG _Scion_ for a very long time. However, despite my love of and religious work with the mythologies of cultures throughout time and/or space, I had trouble seeing what I could do with the game. That is, _Scion_ seemed inert to me, a cute idea, a cool concept, a thing which was awesome in and of itself and should have had me frothing at the mouth with ideas for characters and games but didn’t.

    Luckily, that has all changed! I have had . . . drumroll, please . . . AN IDEA!

    Of course, it’s an idea that might be a little bit intense, so perhaps I should say it now: there might be triggers in the game and maybe even in this description or the links I provide, mostly around misogyny, the oppression of women, and (possibly) child abuse.

    Yeah, I wanna explore some pretty serious shit with this campaign. The idea came to me as I was reading this article: http://www.theguardian.com/global-development-professionals-network/2014/mar/05/india-hinduism-goddesses-feminism-global-development. I immediately experienced a bubbling eruption of questions (many of which are asked below) about religion and culture and the religious projects of myself and others. It’s one of my single favorite things to have read on the internet just for that. It wasn’t until I followed a link to another article (http://www.buzzfeed.com/regajha/indias-incredibly-powerful-abused-goddesses-campaign-condemn) that I thought of _Scion_ however.

    I would like to explore at least some of the following questions in a _Scion_ game, if I can find a group willing to do so. I would like at the very least two players and could probably handle up to four, MAYBE five. My life is a little busy at the moment, so I’m thinking a biweekly or maybe even monthly game. In the case of the latter, though, longer sessions of 6-8 hours might be preferrable.

    Does a religion honoring goddesses lend itself to/create a culture that honors women and thus treats them well? Does this change if the goddesses are honored as part of a pantheon alongside gods (as in many Hinduisms) or as supreme over gods/the only form of divinity (as in many Euro-American Goddess spiritualities)? This can be read as asking if the entire feminist spirituality movement has any real hope of achieving its goals and can be generalized into other identity-based movements (race identity religions like the Lost-Found Nation of Islam, gay/queer spiritualities like some Radical Fairies’, etc.)
    If one is creating a religion, how does one decide if that religion is proscriptive or descriptive as regards the structure of society and the place of people within it? Why does one choose the option they choose?
    Can the subaltern speak?
    In pointing at a real injustice in another culture, can members of a different culture erase historical and present states/forms of equality and justice in that culture? (think white feminists and Islamic modesty garb or female circumcision)
    Can that which is empowering for one person be disempowering for another who shares the relevant identity? How does colonialism play into this difference, if at all?
    What happens when members of an outside culture are driven inescapably to act against what they perceive to be an injustice in another, without regard for (or, likely, knowledge of) the ripple-consequences of their action? If we are utilizing a virtue ethics, how can we fault or criticize them for doing so? Whose virtues determine the moral rightness of actions taken in this situation? What if the victim wants the help? What if e doesn’t?
    Can that which is degrading, disgusting, or unjust be holy? What does that mean? How does that then affect or create our understanding of the world and our behavior? If one is creating a religion, how does one decide what to honor and what to exclude? Is there a reason to honor that which we find repugnant? Is there value in leaving all that is repugnant out of one’s new religion? What are the consequences of each?
    What could drive a goddess into an abusive relationship? What does that say about how we in the modern/post-modern USA treat the divine, however we experience or construct it?
    Does making some concept or thing central to one’s religious system (such as unconditional love in many Christianities or nature in many neopaganisms) compel one to embody/respect/protect the concept or thing or does it absolve you of that responsibility (“God’s got that covered”/”I’ve done enough by means of ritual”)?

    _Scion_ is a highly hackable game, and I welcome scions of any god or god-like being players wish and can make a case for, as well as for other player-created additions to the game or non-scion character ideas. I am certainly a special-snowflake kind of player (my first three RPG characters ever were each half-dragons, culminating in a half-mercury dragon for Paladine’s sake!) and so like to run a game that’s welcoming to others like myself. And. I am running this as a _Scion_ game for a reason, so let’s all just keep an eye on our thematic goals as we create our special snowflakes, k?

    Wanna play?

    For further inspiration:
    Religious prostitution: http://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2011/jan/21/devadasi-india-sex-work-religion
    Colonialism reading gender equality/matriarchy as the oppression of women: “The Tale of Old Venn” in Samuel Delany’s _Tales of Neveryon_
    Cross-dressing to honor a woman-protecting goddess: http://www.thehindu.com/todays-paper/tp-national/tp-andhrapradesh/all-set-for-gangamma-jatara/article4685238.ece
    Gayatri Spivak’s “Can the Subaltern Speak?”
    Thursday, March 6th, 2014
    12:57 pm
    ATTN: Trans* pagans
    Myself and two or three others are looking for partners in a working honoring and bringing the Tetrad++, a new group of trans* gods (more info at http://aediculaantinoi.wordpress.com/2011/11/20/god….

    The Tetrad++ are:
    Panpsyche, who is MtF
    Panhyle, who is FtM
    Paneros, who is non-gendered
    Pancrates, who is pan-gendered
    Paneris, who is gender-fluid
    Panprosdexia, who is a-gendered

    We have folk already interested in bringing Panprosdexia, Paneris, and Paneros (though the last is open to a little debate, and could possibly bring Pancrates). Are any of ya'll interested in working this ritual? No prior experience of or familiarity with or even knowledge of the Tetrad++ is required, though it is welcome.
    Tuesday, March 4th, 2014
    1:00 pm
    What does my paganism look like in 50 years?
    Patheos Pagan asked this question via Facebook. It turns out, I have opinions. Who knew?

    A more representative sampling of races in the movement as a whole. I know many pagans of color and yet wherever I look in the more . . . institutional or voice-amplifying elements of the community, such as Pantheacon, I see far more white people than in the general population (or at least, the general population of San Jose and Oakland, the two cities where I have made my home). White people (like me): that means we need to do some fucking hard work and invite some scary-ass demons and shadows over for tea.

    Getting over our myopia and self-involvement. By which I mean, growing up. By which I mean, living up to the social justice implications and culture-creating responsibility of our various theologies (pantheism, immanent divinity, bountiful animism, apotheosis, et cetera) by developing a strong network of services for a wide variety of situations of need - soup kitchens, homeless shelters, old folks' homes, hospitals/clinics, et cetera, et cetera - and innovating new structures for creating and enacting those that resist power-over, hierarchical, hyper-individualist, capitalist structures while remaining embodied spells founded in our ontologies and values at a radical and structural level. Recognizing that we can bring pagan perspectives and powers to bear in creating secular priest/esshoods working to honor and tend the cultures and organizations we walk throughout the world in, and DEMANDING that that work be honored by the overculture, without turning it into a pseudo-secular holier-than-thou assertion of our religions.

    Resisting the desire and push to mainstream and assimilate. Not only honoring our own paths, but honoring those under the pagan umbrella that confuse or throw us off, and uncompromisingly demanding that the rest of our overculture respect and honor them as well. WITHOUT CHANGE. Taking a special stance for the outsiders, the freaks, the mystics, the hermits, the wise crazy ones, the witches (see what I did there?) that they -- we -- are holy and important and must be accepted as full members of society or as much so as they wish/need for their work as they are.

    A wide variety of temples and organizations scattered densely throughout the land, as various in size as those of the classical world. So: everything from the grand temples of the Forum Romana with multiple colleges of priests to the Nile-side shrine of Osiris-That Random Peasant Dude Who Drowned In The Nile with maybe -- MAYBE -- a single, part-time priest. And I want these temples to be even more varied in style and type and work as they are in size. And I want them fully and truly self-defined with support from the greater community. Maybe there is a specific priest/esshood out there who's work is the go-between work necessary to mimic the benefits of grand monolithic structures such as many Christianities have.

    Recognizing that "paganism" is a useful concept and not just in some sort of cynical, policy-writing kind of way. There truly is a pagan community and it is important. BUT IT IS NOT A RELIGION and, ultimately, has little meaning in and of itself. Within the paganism community are manymanymany religions that are vastly and fundamentally different. And there are many people who work multiple of those religions at the same time. And there are many people who focus laser-like on only a single one and cannot/will not participate in others. And that's okay. And everyone's paganism is different for a hell of alot of reasons. Third-wave feminisms have responded to a similar situation by pluralizing the word feminism. Maybe we should start pluralizing paganisms . . .
    12:59 pm
    Friday, February 28th, 2014
    9:54 am
    Maha Shivaratri
    I celebrated Maha Shivaratri yesterday with fasting and masturbation and chanting.

    It was a rather intense experience for me, all day and especially last night.

    There are more details on my blog, A muppet's Book of Days.

    Check it out, if you're interested.
    Sunday, February 23rd, 2014
    1:43 pm
    I've started a new spiritual project!
    You can find it at muppetbookofdays.blogspot.com

    The most important altered state of consciousness to mup is silliness -- which is VERY distinct from humor. You can easily have a silliness that's not funny, just as in classical understandings panic (πανικον, from the name of the god Παν - Pan) is the altered state of consciousness that arises when one is lost after moving through the fear. This blog, however, is about a very different altered state of consciousness, one which blends and merges with ontology, with how one moves through the world.

    It is my intention to celebrate all the holidays, festivals, and ritual observances (or realistically, as many as I can) as possible for all of the traditions from which mup draws its pantheon. Which is a lot. In this way, I seek to recognize every day as sacred and holy, though differently so every time. In this way, I work to break my brain open that I might see the divinity of all that is and dance within it, every breath thick with the numinous. In this way, I am and will become the Beast with Flowered Horns.

    To this end, I have begun compiling a Book of Days or tonalamatl for myself, to know the ebbs and flows and tides of destiny through the days and to know what needs celebrating when. You can see and comment on my work here. Much of what I have compiled has been a little bit thrown-together, so if anyone has any informatoon on these home traditions of my deities, I would appreciate learning more.

    The fifteen mup deities (and their traditions of origin) are as follows and I am too geeky NOT to put them in their original scripts where possible:

    Antinous (Egyptian, Greek, Roman) - Ἀντίνοος
    Ardhanarisvara (Hindu) - अर्धनारीश्वर
    Azathoth (Lovecraftian)
    Eris (Discordian, Greek, Roman) - Ἔρις
    Hermaphroditos (Greek, Roman) - Ἑρμαφρόδιτος
    Heru-pa-khered / Harpokrates / Hoor-paar-kraat (Egyptian, Greek, Thelema) - Ἁρποκράτης
    Inanna (Sumerian)
    Melek Taus (Feri / Yezidi) - ملك طاووس
    Pombagira (Congo / Ifa / Umbanda)
    Tlazolteotl (Aztec)
    the Beast with Flowered Horns (I made fem up)
    brahman (Hindu)
    Deep Reality (Robert Anton Wilson's philosophy)
    Lacuna (I made up)
    tzaddikim shel haShem (I made them up)

    Does anyone know how I might be able to type in hieroglyphics or cuneiform above?
    Thursday, February 6th, 2014
    10:44 am
    My Tentative PantheaCon schedule!
    This isn't how it will look during the event, both because I haven't scheduled sufficient time to cover my Info Desk shifts (I'm pretty certain) and also because Mommy Eris, but it's close . . .

    FRIDAY, FEBRUARY 14, 2014
    13:30, Cedar: “The Ephesia Grammata,” P. Sufenas Virius Lupus
    Bio: P. Sufenas Virius Lupus is a metagender person, and one of the founding members of the Ekklesía Antínoou as well as a contributing member of Neos Alexandria and a practicing Celtic Reconstructionist pagan in the traditions ofgentlidecht and filidecht. E has written eight books, as well as numerous essays, articles, poems, and fiction contributions to a variety of anthologies and periodicals.
    Description: The Ephesia Grammata or “Ephesian Letters” were said to have been written on the statue of Artemis of Ephesus, and consist of six (or occasionally seven) words that are somewhat like other voces magicae; they are often used in spell formulae in Graeco-Egyptian magic. They were also used in the ancient world for both protection, and possibly for divination. Learn about the system, and how it can be used for these purposes today. Bring at least six notecards, paper, pieces of wood, stones, or other small objects as well as writing materials appropriate to them to possibly make your own!

    15:30, San Jose: “Introduction to Indigenous Ifa and Orisha,” Baba Esu OR Info Desk shift
    Bio: Baba Esu (esuwemimo@gmail.com) is an initiated Priest of Esu and was initiated by Chief Luisah Teish & Ile Orunmila Oshun 12 1/2 years ago. Baba works as a Senior Financial Analyst and holds a B.S. in Accounting and Finance from San Jose State University and holds an A.S. in Culinary Arts. Baba is trained and accredited as a professional chef and is the CEO of Yummy Tummy Farms LLC in San Jose, CA.
    Description: The Yoruba culture and language offers a deeply rooted unbroken lineage of spiritual knowledge and wisdom from which birthed Santeria, Lucumi, and Umbanda. In this talk, we will focus on an overview of Ifa cosmology, the creation story, and all of the well-known Deities or Orisha of the Yoruba Pantheon: Esu, Ogun, Osoosi, Oshun, Yemoja, Oya, Obatala, Aganju, Osain, as well as The Ancestors. The perspective of this talk will be highlighting spiritual elevation techniques through the ritual technology, beauty-filled, wisdom based tradition as it comes to us from West Africa, especially Nigeria.

    c. 17:20, Pool Area, “Honoring of the New Sancta/e/i,” Ekklesía Antínoou
    Description: [Not on the regular schedule!] Come for a short ritual honoring two of the most recent Sancta/e/i of the Ekklesía Antínoou, Rev. Eddy “Hyperion” Gutiérrez/Dr. E. Sanctus, and Lady Olivia Durdin Robertson Sancta. A modified form of the Ekklesía Antínoou’s rite of sanctification will be spoken in English for each, followed by the Latin form for both of them together, and then there will be time for those present to speak praising words and share memories in their honor.

    19:00, Cedar/Pine, “The Guardians: A Ritual of Calling,” T. Thorn Coyle and the Morningstar Mystery School
    Bio: Morningstar Mystery School is comprised of dedicated magic workers and long-time seekers of Mystery. The school is under the head of author and teacher T. Thorn Coyle.
    Description: We invoke the Guardians of Matter, Space, and Time. We call them from their vast and distant realms, from the edges of the edgeless worlds. We invoke them from the chambers of our hearts, reflections of their vastness. We meet "as within, so without" unlocking Mystery. To summon the Guardians, we must summon the sparks that burn likes stars at the core of the soul. In summoning the Guardians, we find our place in the cosmos itself. What is our role? What will we risk? What becomes possible? Please join us as we chant the Names of Power. This ritual is for adults. Doors closed at start.

    21:00, Santa Clara: “Experimental Reconstruction,” Finnchuill
    Bio: Finnchuill is a polytheist who works primarily with Celtic and Hellenic pantheons. He is an ordained Druid of FoDLA, and a filidecht practitioner. He takes an experimental reconstructionist approach toward practice. A writer, poet, and educator with an MFA in creative writing and BA in History, he lives in San Francisco. He’s the author of From the Prow of Myth, and is on the review board of Air n-Aithescmagazine. Finnchuill blogs at finnchuillsmast at wordpress.
    Description: Reconstructionism is often seen as something overly tied to a distant past, to ways of life that are far from our own. What are some ways we can use recon methodologies but in an experimental way: taking practices as far as we can understand them and then trying them out in our own context? Example: River goddesses were worshiped in ancient Celtic cultures–how to apply that here and now? Discussion meant to further participants’ own experiments. Applicable to various other cultural traditions too.

    23:00, Cedar/Pine, “Pomba Gira 2.0: Red is the New Black!!!” American Magic Umbanda House
    Bio: The members of the AMUH have been practicing our version of American Umbanda for over 20 years in the greater San Francisco Bay Area. We are what is called a mixed house, meaning that we have a variety of pantheons that we work with, but our primary pantheon is the Orixa of West Africa, and Brazil. For more information, please contact Mama Maeva at: AMUHinfo@Gmail.com
    Description: Come to the revamped Parlor Of Pomba Gira, and join us as we drum, sing, dance and bask in the power and hard earned wisdom goddess of love and lust. Pomba Gira teaches us self -confidence, love of thyself, acceptance of others and how to pay your bills. Wear your finest red and black and be ready to whomp up a mountain of energy to bless this Con! Remember street legal in the halls and beach legal on the floor, your figs and berries must be covered at all times. This Ain't your mama's Pomba!!! No Photography, No One Under 21 - ID required at the door.

    SATURDAY, FEBRUARY 15, 2014
    8:45, Pool Area: “Inundation Ritual,” Ekklesía Antínoou
    Description: [Not on the regular schedule!] After a year’s unintentional hiatus, the Inundation Ritual is back! Come participate in this purification-by-water ritual with the Ekklesía Antínoou; especially recommended if you plan to take part in any Ekklesía Antínoou events later in the con’. Wear a bathing suit and prepare to get wet after the preliminary prayers and exercises, and then hang out for a bit with us in the water afterwards!
    11:00, Oak: “Sacrifice and Modern Paganism: A Panel Discussion,” Coru Cathubodua
    Bio: Service, sovereignty, kinship and warriorship are the values that guide the Coru Cathobodua Priesthood. We are Pagan priests on the move, ready to take action to advance our mission to bring about sovereignty and kinship to the world through acts of community and individual service. Guided by our the matron the Morrígan, Celtic Goddess of sovereignty, prophecy, and battle, we welcome all who share this vision of service to bringing these values to life for all people. For information about Coru Cathubodua, visit http://www.corupriesthood.com.
    Description: From offering the best wine and grain to the finest animal or tribal member to the Gods, sacrifice was a central part of many ancient cultures. But as modern Pagans we must ask ourselves: what is the role of sacrifice today? Join us as we explore questions surrounding sacrifice with panelists Sam Webster (M. Div., author & blogger at “Arkadian Anvil”), Crystal Blanton (Wild Hunt and Patheos.com), Jeff Albaugh (Cherry Hill Seminary and Conference on Current Pagan Studies), and Amy Hale, Ph.D. (St. Petersburg College).

    13:30, San Martin/San Simeon: “Lupercalia 2014!” Ekklesia Antinoou
    Bio: The Ekklesía Antinoou (“Citizenry of Antinous”) is a queer, Graeco-Roman-Egyptian syncretist reconstructionist polytheist group dedicated to worship of Antinous, the deified lover of the Roman Emperor Divus Hadrianus, and related divine figures. This form of modern Antinoan practice has been functioning since 2002. P. Sufenas Virius Lupus will be conducting this session, with assistance from several other Ekklesia Antinoou members and friends.
    Description: Ianus and Venus, Mars and Quirinus, Faunus, Silvanus, and Antinous Lupercus…As is Roman custom, on the Fifteenth of February, come and celebrate the holy day of Lupercalia–a festival of purification and communal integrity–by running with the wolves in all their milky-and-bloody glory! All (and all ages) are welcome to attend, but doors will close after the ritual begins.

    15:30, Oak: “Pagans and Privilege: Let’s Talk About It,” T. Thorn Coyle, Crystal Blanton & a Kick-Ass Panel OR maybe OLT
    Bio: T. Thorn Coyle moderates this panel of powerful and insightful teachers and activists: Crystal Blanton, Xochiquetzal Duti Odinsdottir, Charlie Glickman, and Elena Rose Vera.
    Description: Privilege is the ability to not have to stare oppression in the face. Unexamined Privilege can make oppression hard to see & to talk about, sowing pain & discord. Can we compassionately examine racism, misogyny, ableism, homophobia, transphobia, or economic disparity within Paganism? Join our distinguished panelists in exploring the many different questions around privilege, intersectionality, & social justice. Let’s look at our differences & seek out common ground. Panelists are Crystal Blanton, Elena Rose Vera, Charlie Glickman, & Xochiquetzal Duti Odinsdottir. Moderated by T. Thorn Coyle.

    19:00, Boardroom, “FFRASS: Garden Info, Social, & Seed Swap”, Ruth Temple OR Info Desk shift
    Bio: Ruth Temple traces a multi-generational background in fiber arts and still wears her first scarf woven at age 10. Weaving guilds are strong keepers of the flame of all the fiber arts; good contacts for finding your local fiberistas include: http://cnch.org in California, http://ravelry.com/, and http://hga.org. An avid gardener, Ruth is a member of the Flower, Fruit, Root, and Seed Society (FFRASS) found at FFRASS@yahoogroups.com with a widespread Pagan permaculture-gardening membership.
    Description: Back by popular demand! Interested in gardening, in deepening your roots in permaculture design, ready to swap some seeds and maybe some starts for your Spring garden? The Flower Fruit Root and Seed Society (FFRASS) brings a spirited approach to gardening and our sacred relation with our dwelling places.

    21:00, Suite 1060, “Pantheon Foundation Reception”, Pantheon Foundation
    Announcing the Pantheon Foundation:
    building 21st Century Pagan infrastructure.
    We are a California non-profit religious corporation applying for 501(c)(3) status with the IRS. Our mission is to provide IRS group exemptions for Pagan organizations through fiscal sponsorship, develop Pagan ministry, study the history, promote the culture, and advance the social welfare of Pagans and the Pagan community.
    Come to our reception at PantheaCon, Saturday night at 9pm in Suite 1060.

    23:00, San Juan/San Carlos, “Skeletor Affirmations”, Discordian.com
    Bio: Discordian.com was created by the Church of No Dead Saints to further their purpose of promoting Discordianism as the thinking prankster's religion. The Church believes that Discordianism will die without an influx of modern thought, semi-belief, and Erisian events. By creating this site with its writings and ideas, St. Mae and St. Fox hope to revitalize Discordianism as an intense, throbbing centre of laughter, defiance, and lunacy.
    Description: The first step to healing the world is healing the self, and the first step to healing the self is conquering Castle Grayskull and using its ancient secrets to rule all of Eternia. The Skeletor Affirmations ritual inverts the Death/Life structure and offers new affirmations and hope that we can all use in our daily life. Some of us have skull faces, and some of us have dozens of oddly-themed incompetent minions, but we can all benefit from the wit and wisdom of Skeletor. All the power is yours!

    SUNDAY, FEBRUARY 16, 2014
    9:00, Monterey, “Pagans and Institution Building”, Amy Hale
    Bio: Dr. Amy Hale is an anthropologist specializing in contemporary Celtic cultures, with an emphasis on Cornwall and esoteric cultural history. She is the co-editor of New Directions in Celtic Studies (2000) and Inside Merlin's Cave: A Cornish Arthurian Reader (2000) in addition to over 30 other articles ranging from Neo Druidry to Celtic cultural tourism. She is past co-editor of the Journal of the Academic Study of Magic and is currently working on a biography of Ithell Colquhoun for Francis Boutle Press.
    Description: What are Institutions? Do Pagans need them? How do we develop appropriate institutions that will reflect our values and meet our needs? There are many ways to build institutions depending what our communities require. After setting the terms of the discussion, we will open the floor and explore what it means to build meaningful, sustainable institutions, how they function both inside and outside the community, and why they are important to developing a strong and vibrant Paganism in the 21st century.

    11:00, Pine: “Yes They Are! Meeting and Greeting the Queerest of the Gods,” Circle of Dionysos
    Bio: The Circle of Dionysos is dedicated to the exploration and celebration of spiritual traditions that honor gender fluidity and sexual variance. We believe that universal diversity is purposeful, and thus that members of the Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender, and Queer Community possess wisdom that is of vital importance to the community at large. Through public ritual performances, small study groups, and personal spiritual guidance, we seek to help both individuals and our community in discovering, developing, and expressing that wisdom. For More information about the Circle of Dionysos, please visit our website at http://circleofdionysos.org/.
    Description: After a two year hiatus, Yes They Are! returns to PCon with new performers, new Deities, and new messages. Yes They Are! is a rite of Out-rageous ferocity and fabulosity, giving voice to the gender shifting and same sex loving Deities found in Pantheons around the world. Join us as we play, rage, mourn, dance, and laugh our way through this rite celebrating the uniqueness found in each of us.

    13:30, Carmel/Monterey: “Empowerment - Ideas from the Ancient Egyptians,” Tony Mierzwicki
    Bio: Tony Mierzwicki is the author of "Graeco-Egyptian Magick: Everyday Empowerment" and a forthcoming primer reconstructing Classical Greek religion. He has contributed to various anthologies and magazines. He has presented workshops recreating ancient magickal practices in the United States and the east coast of Australia since 2001, drawing on his practice of ceremonial magick which he began in 1990. Tony's wife, Jo-Ann, has been co-facilitating his workshops since 2004. Tony completed three degrees at the University of Sydney - MA, BE and BSc.
    Description: So you've been studying magick or witchcraft and want to improve your skills? Sometimes it helps to think outside the box. The ancient Egyptians were renowned as being powerful magickians, so why not apply their paradigm? The ancient Egyptians followed a code of behavior to assure themselves of a successful afterlife. This code involved aspiring to a state of balance through having a proper relationship with the divine and with humanity, as well as an awareness of their rights and responsibilities towards animals and the environment.

    15:30, Boardroom: “Dismantling Gender,” Rev. Lee Whitaker OR Info Desk shift
    Bio: Lee identifies as a Progressive Christian, Jewish, Wiccan transman. He is an ordained minister with the Progressive Christian Alliance. He will be completing his Masters of Divinity at Starr King School for the Ministry. He will also be receiving a Certificate in Sexuality and Religion from the Pacific School of Religion. Lee also serves on the Advisory Board for the Coalition for Welcoming Congregations. His ministry is about helping people overcome and heal their spiritual wounds. He also does a great deal of work in teaching groups of people around the issue of gender, sexuality and the gender spectrum..
    Description: Talking with people who are not knowledgeable about gender variances is not easy. In this interactive workshop we will look at how views of gender, sexuality and sensuality are informed and biased by our own antiquated and unauthentic beliefs that come from a variety of places. By learning what we subconsciously know, we can begin to engage in creating a more welcoming world for everyone regardless of where they fall on the gender spectrum. Please bring a notebook or pad to this workshop.

    19:00, Boardroom, “The Magic of Writing: how to use writing to manifest reality,” Taylor Ellwood OR Info Desk shift
    Bio: Taylor Ellwood lives in Portland, OR with his magical Partner Kat, and his cats Sun Ce and Ember. He is the author of Pop Culture Magick, Space/Time Magic, Inner Alchemy, and Multi-Media Magic. Taylor is also the managing non-fiction editor of Immanion Press, which specializes in esoteric Non-Fiction. To learn more about him visit http://www.magicalexperiments.com
    Description: In this class, we'll explore writing as a magical tool, and how it can be used to manifest possibilities into reality. Even if you are a non-writer, this class can provide useful tips for learning how to use writing as a magical tool. We'll discuss journaling, sigils, and writing techniques you can use with your magical practice

    21:00, San Martin/San Simeon, “Devotional Parade and Ceremony for Lady Inanna”, Temple of Inanna and Dumuzi
    Bio: The Temple of Inanna and Dumuzi is a semi-reconstructionist, Mesopotamian temple dedicated to the ancient Sumerian Goddess Inanna (known to the Babylonians as Ishtar) and God Dumuzi (known to the Babylonians as Tammuz). The rituals are based on the ancient Mesopotamian (primarily Sumerian and Akkadian) texts, with both inspiration and consultation with the Deities as glue. All persons of good will are welcome. http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Temple_of_Inanna_and_Dumuzi/
    Description: "The people of Sumer parade before you. The women adorn their right sides with men's clothing....The men adorn their left sides with women's clothing. The people of Sumer parade before you." So sings an ancient cuneiform hymn to Inanna, Queen of Heaven and Earth, to Whom belong all the arts and joys of civilization. We will parade for holy Inanna and celebrate Her and Her husband Dumuzi. All are invited. Glitz, glam, drag, semi-drag, and/or your most glorious attire suggested.

    23:00, Pagans of Color Hospitality Suite, “Play Party”, PoC Caucus


    MONDAY, FEBRUARY 17, 2014
    9:00, Carmel/Monterey: “Beard Blessing Ritual,” Ekklesía Antínoou
    Bio: The Ekklesía Antínoou (“Citizenry of Antinous”) is a queer, Graeco-Roman-Egyptian syncretist reconstructionist polytheist group dedicated to worship of Antinous, the deified lover of the Roman Emperor Divus Hadrianus, and related divine figures. This form of modern Antinoan practice has been functioning since 2002. P. Sufenas Virius Lupus will be conducting this session, with assistance from several other Ekklesía Antínoou members and friends.
    Description: “These are the prohibitions of a beard…” So goes a medieval Irish text that tells the expectations of a mature adult. Hadrian was the first Roman Emperor to have a beard, and every Emperor after him followed suit. This ritual will involve the blessings and the injunctions of the bearded and the non-bearded as well. To be part of the beard blessing, one must have a beard (whether real or fake), otherwise one will be part of the non-bearded blessing. For absolutely anyone who has a beard, may have one in the future, or who doesn’t have one, regardless of gender or age!

    ]11:00, Carmel/Monterey: “Youth Blessing Ritual,” Ekklesía Antínoou
    Bio: The Ekklesía Antínoou (“Citizenry of Antinous”) is a queer, Graeco-Roman-Egyptian syncretist reconstructionist polytheist group dedicated to worship of Antinous, the deified lover of the Roman Emperor Divus Hadrianus, and related divine figures. This form of modern Antinoan practice has been functioning since 2002. P. Sufenas Virius Lupus will be conducting this session, with assistance from several other Ekklesía Antínoou members and friends.
    Description: The Ekklesia Antinoou recognizes the wisdom and blessings inherent in youth, and in this ritual will bless and protect youth (and all others present), and demonstrate the wisdom of youth by having those youths present (i.e. anyone under 20) help to create the ritual and bless others by doing so. The ritual will involve Antinous, as well as the family of Polydeukion and Herodes Attikos. For anyone to attend, but particularly for young people–and feel free to bring your parents or older friends along, too!

    13:30, Fir: “Meet the Santa Muerte/Diga hola a la Santa Muerte,” Dr. Stephanie Rendino
    Bio: Dr. Rendino earned her Doctorate in Sacred Theology at Universite de Montreal in 2008. She specialized in Mexican syncretistic religion. She splits her time between San Diego, CA and Tucson, AZ.
    Description: Santa Muerte is a syncretistic deity (or angel, or saint) associated with the underside of Mexican and southwestern American society. Is this association fair or accurate, though? Dr. Rendino will unpack the origin and meanings of this controversial religious figure.
    Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
    7:00 am
    10-Vulture 1-Deer 2-Rabbit / a. d. V id. Ian. MMDCCLXVII A.U.C. / Anno IVxxi ☉ 2° Aqu ☽ 13° Lib
    Wednesday, January 22, 2014
    Mahtlactlicozcacuautli Cemazatl Ometochtli (10-Vulture 1-Deer 2-Rabbit)
    7th day of the Antinous Lunus Moon
    Anno IVxxi ☉ in 2° Aquarius, ☽ in 13° Libra
    dies Mercurii a. d. V id. Ian. MMDCCLXVII A.U.C.
    ???th day of “I have already been killed for my imperfections”
    266th day of “the seed that weaves an abundance of belonging, taking our splintered lives and growing a living web of interconnectedness. The intention of strength together, an equilibrium of giving and receiving.”
    224th day of “I dance in right relationship with desire in every moment”
    83rd day of “We sacrifice that which keeps us from living in love”

    The significance of this day
    Day Cozcacuauhtli (Vulture) is governed by Itzpapalotl as its provider of tonalli (Shadow Soul) life energy. Cozcacuauhtli signifies long life, wisdom, good counsel and mental equilibrium. It is a good day to confront the discontinuities, disruptions, failures and deaths one suffers in life. Cozcacuauhtli is a day for tricking the Trickster.

    The thirteen day period (trecena) that starts with day 1-Mazatl (Deer) is ruled by Tepeyollotl, the Heart of the Mountain, the Jaguar of Night, lord of the animals and darkened caves. Tepeyollotl is Tezcatlipoca disguised in a jaguar hide, whose voice is the echo in the wilderness and whose word is the darkness itself, calls to the heart in the voice of the conch. These are 13 days associated with the hunt: whether one is the hunter or the game, this trecena reminds us that our lives are determined by the act of stalking. The arts of tracking and back-tracking, of spotting and camouflaging, of following tracks and covering tracks, rule our lives to the degree that we master them. These are good days to study the routines of others; bad days to keep to your routines.

    TONIGHT's Cancer Full Moon is the lunar phase we call the LUNUS MOON in Antinous Moon Magic — the Moon of Moons!

    This is a Full Moon which brings out powerful emotions. Because this Full Moon always occurs during December/January, it is emotional farewell to the old year and heart-felt welcoming of the new year.

    You will shed sentimental tears for loved ones you have lost during the past year, not to mention a job or other things you may have lost.

    Each lunar phase represents a Divine Spirit or Archetype. The Spirit of Lunus is Antinous the Moon God. It is your His lunar divine self.

    Antinous the Gay God was worshiped in ancient times as a lunar deity. The "Man in the Moon" was actually the "Blessed Boy in the Moon" to the ancient worshipers of Antinous.

    The Spirit of the Lunus Moon is the spirit of emotions, unconscious habits, rhythms, memories and moods. It is also your dreams and nostalgia. Lunus is the personification of the unconscious mind and it is all dreams and visions.

    The OBELISK OF ANTINOUS states that he hears the prayers of his worshipers and sends them healing visions as they slumber. Lunus is the personification of intuition and mediumistic abilities.

    Lunus is clairvoyance itself. Lunus is also the bringer of nightmares, fears, traumas and irrational emotional imbalance.

    Just as the Moon moves the tides, Lunus brings emotional fluctuations. Lunus is inconstancy, inconsistency and flux. As the phases of the moon change, so Lunus is all things which flow and fluctuate. It is all things which come and go like the tides.

    Tonight's Lunus Moon is a propitious time for meditations and rituals delving into your emotional state of being, and also for intuitive or clairvoyant trances.

    On Wednesday brace yourself for a volatile atmosphere at work (or play, for that matter) when ANTINOUS THE MOON GOD is in very tense aspects to Uranus, Pluto, Jupiter and Venus. Co-workers will fly off the handle and bark at you for no good reason. Try to keep calm and not say something you will regret tomorrow.

    How does a monarch butterfly escape its chrysalis when it has finished gestating? Through tiny holes in the skin of the chrysalis, it takes big gulps of air and sends them directly into its digestive system, which expands forcefully. Voila! Its body gets so big it breaks free. When a chick is ready to emerge from inside its egg, it has to work harder than the butterfly. With its beak, it must peck thousands of times at the shell, stopping to rest along the way because the process is so demanding. According to my analysis, Cancerian, you're nearing the final stage before your metaphorical emergence from gestation. Are you more like the butterfly or chick?

    As soon as you're trying really hard to figure out just where they're coming from, you're already doing it wrong, Cancer. Under these astro-conditions, your impulse will be to put your intuitive feelers to good use, probing beneath their words and into their underlying emotional complexes (or at least your interpretive perception of what you're picking up), in order to help you determine a resonant strategy for addressing them in whatever language their heart will best understand. Stop right there. That's a lot of energy to expend on trying to play to their present psychological state… which not only implies you're adopting a fairly indirect or passive-aggressive approach to expressing where you're coming from (since it's overly dependent on conditions existing outside of you), but also borders on being needlessly intrusive on the psychic level. Rather than attempting to elicit a certain response from them, head off their potential criticism or upset, and/or spare them the pain you might otherwise cause (or so you think), then, please just dispense with all those convoluted acrobatics—and stand firm in what you want, regardless of how they're liable to react. If you don't, you're only prolonging your own dissatisfaction and/or setting yourself up for tougher exchanges later, once you have to explain why you didn't speak up earlier.

    My ramblings/what I plan to do with it: Today is a day for stalking the Trickster, hunting the Trickster down and counting coup on the Trickster. An interesting day for a staff meeting, followed by a block party planning meeting, followed by a grantwriting committee meeting, followed by a mediated conversation with the coworker I have such a hard time with, followed by the Berkeley Poetry Slam (I hope, anyway). Damn, tomorrow will be busy, eh? And the stars seem to say that those meetings (two of which I’m facilitating!) will be, ahem, fun. I suppose that means there will definitely a lot of time to study the routines of others, to confront the discontinuities, disruptions, failures, and deaths of my life. I still struggle to live up to the Naraya spell prior to “I dance in right relationship with desire in every moment”, which was “I open my crabshell and my eyes that I might truly and deeply connect with others in my fullness and with mutual respect”. The tonalli of today looks to be useful in this respect, as does the influence of Antinous the Moon God. Of course, at least one interpreter cautions me the other way, cautions me to become more me (growing bigger, perhaps, rather than peckpeckpecking). I must see those routines, sense the interests and desires of the group, and STILL stand firm in what I want. Ah! That’s the hard part!

    The sense to open up is still the intuitive, the unconscious, the third eye perhaps. I have to listen to the voice of the group under the voice of the group when facilitating. I fear I’m not up to it, to tell you the truth. Am I the butterfly or the chick? Are their holes in this busy day or do I need to poke at it it forcefully with my beak? O Mommy Eris, may your chaos and conflict serve to amplify that voice that it might be easier to hear. O Mommy Eris, I need your help. O Mommy Eris, the clamor you bring may either be that voice I seek or it may overpower it and deafen me. Let it be the former, let it open those breathing spaces in my chrysalis that I might expand in my own power and become as big as I need to be (and no more). Do this for me, Mommy Eris, and I will cook hot dogs for you Friday night at the retreat!. You shall have a meal of honor!
    Friday, January 17th, 2014
    8:55 am
    6-Grass 1-Deer 2-Rabbit/prid. Non. Ian. MMDCCLXVII A.U.C./Anno IVxxi ☉ 27° Cap ☽ 13° Leo
    Friday, January 17, 2014
    Chicuacemallinallii Cemazatl Ometochtli (6-Grass 1-Deer 2-Rabbit)
    2nd day of the Antinous Lunus Moon
    Anno IVxxi ☉ in 27° Capricorn, ☽ in 13° Leo
    dies Ueneris prid. Non. Ian. MMDCCLXVII A.U.C.
    ???th day of “I have already been killed for my imperfections”
    261st day of “the seed that weaves an abundance of belonging, taking our splintered lives and growing a living web of interconnectedness. The intention of strength together, an equilibrium of giving and receiving.”
    219th day of “I dance in right relationship with desire in every moment”
    78th day of “We sacrifice that which keeps us from living in love”

    Day Malinalli (Grass) is governed by Patecatl as its provider of tonalli (Shadow Soul) life energy. This day signifies tenacity, rejuvenation, that which cannot be uprooted forever. Malinalli is a day for persevering against all odds and for creating alliances that will survive the test of time. It is a good day for those who are suppressed, a bad day for their suppressors.

    The thirteen day period (trecena) that starts with day 1-Mazatl (Deer) is ruled by Tepeyollotl, the Heart of the Mountain, the Jaguar of Night, lord of the animals and darkened caves. Tepeyollotl is Tezcatlipoca disguised in a jaguar hide, whose voice is the echo in the wilderness and whose word is the darkness itself, calls to the heart in the voice of the conch. These are 13 days associated with the hunt: whether one is the hunter or the game, this trecena reminds us that our lives are determined by the act of stalking. The arts of tracking and back-tracking, of spotting and camouflaging, of following tracks and covering tracks, rule our lives to the degree that we master them. These are good days to study the routines of others; bad days to keep to your routines.

    TONIGHT's Cancer Full Moon is the lunar phase we call the LUNUS MOON in Antinous Moon Magic — the Moon of Moons!

    This is a Full Moon which brings out powerful emotions. Because this Full Moon always occurs during December/January, it is emotional farewell to the old year and heart-felt welcoming of the new year.

    You will shed sentimental tears for loved ones you have lost during the past year, not to mention a job or other things you may have lost.

    Each lunar phase represents a Divine Spirit or Archetype. The Spirit of Lunus is Antinous the Moon God. It is your His lunar divine self.

    Antinous the Gay God was worshiped in ancient times as a lunar deity. The "Man in the Moon" was actually the "Blessed Boy in the Moon" to the ancient worshipers of Antinous.

    The Spirit of the Lunus Moon is the spirit of emotions, unconscious habits, rhythms, memories and moods. It is also your dreams and nostalgia. Lunus is the personification of the unconscious mind and it is all dreams and visions.

    The OBELISK OF ANTINOUS states that he hears the prayers of his worshipers and sends them healing visions as they slumber. Lunus is the personification of intuition and mediumistic abilities.

    Lunus is clairvoyance itself. Lunus is also the bringer of nightmares, fears, traumas and irrational emotional imbalance.

    Just as the Moon moves the tides, Lunus brings emotional fluctuations. Lunus is inconstancy, inconsistency and flux. As the phases of the moon change, so Lunus is all things which flow and fluctuate. It is all things which come and go like the tides.

    Tonight's Lunus Moon is a propitious time for meditations and rituals delving into your emotional state of being, and also for intuitive or clairvoyant trances.

    On Friday that romantic blast from the past on Thursday really clears up some long-standing misunderstandings on Friday when Mercury and Uranus form a positive sextile aspect while ANTINOUS THE MOON GOD is in a tense configuration with Mercury. The atmosphere will be charged with electricity, but when the electrical storm subsides, the air will be clear of misunderstandings.



    In her poem "Catch a Body," Ilse Bendorf says she dislikes the advice "Don't ever tell anybody anything." On the other hand, "Tell everyone everything" isn't the right approach, either, she says. Judging from your astrological omens, Cancerian, I surmise that you're wavering between those two extremes. You're tempted to think you've got to do one or the other. Should you cultivate the power that comes from being silent, and keep people guessing about your true feelings? Or should you seek greater intimacy but risk giving away your power by confessing all your inner thoughts? I suggest you take a middle path. Tell the vivid truth, but carefully and incrementally.

    This week's full moon in Cancer could likely exacerbate an internal friction that's brewing… one which may have you caught between dutifully continuing your longer-term investment in a certain relationship and angrily snapping about and/or at that certain someone for having different needs or wants than you do. What we don't want to happen, Cancer, is for this exacerbated emotional condition to spur you to communicate your frustrated response to these differences between you with a harsh indicting edge, as if the party-in-question is somehow causing you a personal affront by being their own distinct individual. To be honest, it doesn't actually feel like this 'problem' (if, in fact, there is one) is a factor of something this other person is doing wrong. Rather, it's a matter of how you behave in relationships in general… and whether you're angry with yourself for paying too much mind to what they're up to, at the expense of taking care of yourself first. And therefore, your best solution will not likely come from picking a confrontation (though you may yearn for the release of blurting out unkind observations). Instead, you probably need more alone time, so you can focus on yourself more and reexamine the ramifications of your oh-too-familiar relational habits.

    My ramblings/what I plan to do with it: Well, this seems pretty clear. Today is a day to stand in the fullness of my fuzzy subtle senses, to watch with the intenseness of the jaguar, to listen with the intentness of his prey, all in those misty not-quite-clear, impossible-to-understand intuitive realms. Breathe, open the soul, and be still but ready. Call my love Season. Ignore the wall of the phone at my ear, which always brings me to reserve myself. Open, talk. Be real and present. Breathe into the middle path which is discernment. I love her. I am scared. I love her. Breathe.

    That relationship with different needs and/or wants than me? It’s not with her, or with any of my three loves (well, okay, my ex said to get in touch with it re: process date) or with my lover Jai or with my dom (ok, maybe a little - I am scared there that will turn the same rotten my relationship with my ex did) -- it’s with the organization I work for. They just recently opened up to me serving them as a cultor, as a priest/ess (those are actually, legally, my official titles!), but I need to fundraise enough money to pay my salary in order to do so. I had last week, but they didn’t want to move too quickly, so I couldn’t do anything last week. This week has been a shit week for fundraising, and that’s got me hella bummed. I’ve been a bit short at work as a result. Taking two nights ago to myself and scrapping my slam plans (fuck! I missed Queen Jasmeen!) really helped, so I might need to look to how I organize my evenings in order to help that.

    Tonight is Temple to Inanna and Dumuzi. Seems like good omens to meet them and have them flow through me. Rather looking forward to it!
    Monday, January 6th, 2014
    8:59 am
    Last night
    Who just woke up at 2 in the morning with a sudden attack of the feeling like shit? Oh yeah, me. It's passed; I'm still awake. Grrr.

    ***

    You know how people will say shit to you on the street and you're normally all like "Pfft, whatever, I'm a sexy ass queer goddess/god thing and you're just some bullshit bigot" but sometimes they say it at just the wrong time with the just the wrong wording and tone and it sneaks right past all your armour and your pride and just stabs you in the tender parts?

    Yeah, I've been dealing with the consequences of that all weekend. It's not been terribly pretty inside my head these past few days.

    ***

    There's this thing that happens right after the crisis portion of my time of emotion or whatever that I might call the "splintering of life". It's an emotion I've never heard anyone discuss. Suddenly, I can't seem to make the parts of my life fit together. Just now, having stopped crying for some time (maybe an hour), I thought of high school and I couldn't find the thread that linked high school me and current me. I mean, I have that person's memories so we must be the same person, but I have trouble during the splintering of life seeing how. How is that person connected to this person? How did e become me? I have no idea.

    And then that often had its own process. Which can serve as a distraction from the other process. I'd that why you do this, mind? To distract me from the pain or whatever?

    And I wonder sometimes if this isn't similar to the dissociation some of my system friends experience. It has been suggested that I am numberqueer, or a median, or an individuated one - with the multiplicity of a system, but not the dissociation.

    (all copypasta'd from Facebook because it seems like it would be useful to tell my LJ friends what's been going on in my head, too)
    6:00 am
    8-Crocodile 1-Jaguar 2-Rabbit/a.d. ix Kal. Ian. MMDCCLXVII A.U.C./Anno IVxxi ☉ 16° Cap ☽ 0° Ari
    Monday, January 6, 2014
    Chicueyicipactli Ceocelotl Ometochtli (8-Crocodile 1-Jaguar 2-Rabbit)
    6th day of the Antinous Lamia Moon
    Anno IVxxi æræ legis ☉ 16° Capricorn ☽ 0° Aries
    dies Lunae a.d. ix Kal. Ian. MMDCCLXVII A.U.C.
    ???th day of “I have already been killed for my imperfections”
    250th day of “the seed that weaves an abundance of belonging, taking our splintered lives and growing a living web of interconnectedness. The intention of strength together, an equilibrium of giving and receiving.”
    208th day of “I dance in right relationship with desire in every moment”
    67th day of “We sacrifice that which keeps us from living in love”

    “Day Cipactli (Crocodile) is governed by Tonacatecuhtli, Lord of Nurturance, as its provider of tonalli (Shadow Soul) life energy. Cipactli is an auspicious day, signifying advancement and honor. It depicts energy and work, rewards and recognition. A good day for beginnings.

    The thirteen day period (trecena) that starts with day 1-Ocelotl (Jaguar) is ruled by Quetzalcoatl. This trecena represents brilliance and clarity during a profound eclipse of the light. The principal influence of this time is the divine Whirlwind: to stand in its path calls down destruction; to stand in its eye calls down creation. These are good days to withdraw into the solitude of contemplation and self-discipline; bad days to traffic with those on another path. In the center of it all, the warrior strives to be the mirror rather than the reflection. “

    “TONIGHT's Capricorn New Moon is the lunar phase which in Antinous Moon Magic is called the LAMIA MOON of dark magic.

    Meditation and rituals conducted tonight are best suited for rooting out malaise and sickness and for diminishing evil sendings. Look for areas in your life where you may be detrimental to yourself, may be working against yourself or may be making yourself sick, perhaps literally so.

    The Lamia Moon helps you to focus on those areas and drain them of their debilitating energies. It helps you to look squarely at yourself to see what is draining you of your vitality ... so that you can chart a course towards healing and recovery ... rather than further diminishment.

    Each Lunar Phase represents a Divine Spirit or Archetype. The Spirit of the Lamia Moon is vicious negativity which attacks vitality. It is the Spirit of torment which seeks to dissipate and weaken. It is malaise and malevolence.

    The spirit of the Lamia Moon incorporates all negativity of body and soul. It is destructive thought patterns. It is the instigator of bad habits which impair not only physical health but also mental or spiritual health.

    It is sickness in the broadest sense, but it is by no means limited to physical ailment. It is a disease of the spirit. It is the debilitating failure to shake off a "sick" situation.

    However, the spirit of the Lamia Moon also has the incredible ability to "sicken" and diminish harmful forces.

    Just as a poison can cure, and just as a vaccine uses disease cells to build immunity to those very cells, the Lamia Moon spirit has the ability to weaken forces which are detrimental. It is the spirit of your body's immune system, waging a ceaseless and merciless battle against intruders.

    The Lamia Moon spirit is debilitating and it is cruel. Yes, the Lamia spirit can be harmful, but it can also be a vital ally.

    All meditations and rituals conducted during the cycle of the Capricorn New Moon are best aimed at enlisting this spirit to be your valiant ally in helping you to identify those inner areas of yourself which are weakening you from the inside out.
    . . . .
    On Monday a sheer mountain of work has piled up on your desk when you arrive for work — but you will roll up your sleeves when Mercury forms a productive sextile with Saturn. And after work you will shift into a 12th Night partying mood when ANTINOUS THE MOON GOD forms gently positive aspects with Mercury, Saturn and Venus.”

    “Big rivers don't travel in straight lines. Their paths are curvy and complicated, with periodic turns and bends. In some places they flow faster and in others they're slower. Their depth and width may vary along the way, too. Your own destiny is like one of those big rivers, Cancerian. In some years, it meanders for long stretches, slowing down as it wanders along a crooked course. It may even get shallower and narrower for a while. But I expect that in 2014, you will be moving more rapidly than usual. You will be traveling a more direct route, and you will be both wide and deep.”

    “This week's Mars-Jupiter square threatens to magnify your assertive tendencies… and before you even dare to claim yourself innocent of even having 'assertive tendencies', Cancer, let me reassure you that just because you don't speak (or otherwise conspicuously externalize) your desires, that doesn't mean you aren't still asserting yourself on some psychically protuberant substratal level. Whether or not you're aware that your recent emboldening also brings an uptick in impatience with anyone you feel is preventing you from inner peace and/or domestic tranquility, youwill project an attitudinal edge in such situations… unless, that is, you work overtime to contain your emotional responses (which, admittedly, are about more than just whoever's pissing you off right this moment) and consciously play to the other person. Here's where the current 7th-house action (including Venus retrograde) comes in handy: As long as all your critical interactions faithfully adhere to your specific goal-orientation (i.e., never losing sight of what you want to get from a given person, and what the shrewdest method of getting it would be), you should be able to transcend any passing grump (at least as far as others can see) and successfully keep them unflustered and, consequently, accommodating.”

    My ramblings/what I plan to do with it: Tomorrow is the first day of the first real work week of 2014. This month, I am also opening a new door workwise, stepping into a position I’m creating which I’ve been calling the cultor. It’s a little bit priest, a little bit HR, a little bit shop steward, and a little bit volunteer coordinator. I still have to fundraise to pay my salary, though, so I will have a lot of work in front of me. My first project planning meeting for the work of the cultor with my Executive Director. In fact, my schedule is literally packed all day from 10:00 (when I start work) to 23:30 (when ceilidh at the Starry Plough ends). Of course, from 18:00 on, that schedule is hanging out with my friend at the local anarchist infoshop and ceilidh dancing, but I usually take more downtime. I am very interested to see how I handle such a Whirlwind. Ceilidh seems like it will be quite wonderful tomorrow, if the omens are to be believed.

    I’m fascinated by Rob and Barry having seemingly opposed astrological opinions for the half-week these overlap. I’ll be travelling more direct but I will get my way by containing my emotional responses? Yeah, Hernestus, that’s some Lamia work right there! I got real dark yesterday and the day before, thanks in large part (but not entirely) due to a heinous interaction on the street with a transphobe. The darkness is still hanging around in the background, picking up elements from a friend of mine’s compassionate honesty that’s been a bit hard to swallow. A week or two back, [Bad username: ”mayamaia”] and I had a conversation in which she pointed out that even she (whom I’ve known for a decade and who refers to me as her Confessor) has trouble taking me seriously. I believe she said that I am so extreme about whatever has caught my fancy that I can come off as simply parody of that thing. Poe’s Law’s got bite, I suppose. Mercury’s little sextile with Saturn over here in the Lamia moon while atop Chicueyicipactli will hopefully help me out of feeling like I can’t succeed at anything useful or serious because I’m too outrageous and too much of a joke. The trecena might help too, if only I can be the mirror and not the reflection. That deserves some spellwork today . . . . I’ll have to see what I can do . . . any suggestions?

    Wait a minute, isn’t AstroBarry just saying what azteccalendar.com is saying? To be the mirror and not the reflection, does that mean playing to the other person? I don’t think that’s quite right . . .
    Sunday, December 29th, 2013
    4:55 pm
    1-Ocelotl 1-Ocelotl 2-Tochtli/a.d. iii Kal. Ian. MMDCCLXVI A.U.C./Anno IVxxi ☉ 9° Cap ☽ 16° Sag
    Monday, December 30, 2013
    1-Ocelotl 1-Ocelotl 2-Tochtli (1-Jaguar 1-Jaguar 2-Rabbit)
    5th day of the Antinous Crossroads Moon
    Anno IVxxi æræ legis ☉ 9° Capricorn ☽ 16° Sagittarius
    dies Lunae a.d. iii Kal. Ian. MMDCCLXVI A.U.C.
    ???th day of “I have already been killed for my imperfections”
    243rd day of “the seed that weaves an abundance of belonging, taking our splintered lives and growing a living web of interconnectedness. The intention of strength together, an equilibrium of giving and receiving.”
    201st day of “I dance in right relationship with desire in every moment”
    60th day of “We sacrifice that which keeps us from living in love”

    "Day Ocelotl (Jaguar) is governed by Tlazolteotl as its provider of tonalli (Shadow Soul) life energy. Ocelotl is a good day for doing battle. It signifies power, valor, and reckless abandon in the face of danger. This is a day of the Warriors of Tezcatlipoca, those who willingly sacrifice their lives to keep the flame of the Old Ones burning forever.

    The thirteen day period (trecena) that starts with day 1-Ocelotl (Jaguar) is ruled by Quetzalcoatl. This trecena represents brilliance and clarity during a profound eclipse of the light. The principal influence of this time is the divine Whirlwind: to stand in its path calls down destruction; to stand in its eye calls down creation. These are good days to withdraw into the solitude of contemplation and self-discipline; bad days to traffic with those on another path. In the center of it all, the warrior strives to be the mirror rather than the reflection. "

    "Libra Third Quarter Moon is the lunar phase we call the CROSSROADS MOON in Antinous Moon Magic. It is symbolized by the "Herme" shown here, the ithyphallic stele of Mercury which guarded intersections of Roman roads.

    Tonight is a propitious time for setting a new course, possibly changing course, setting out in a new direction. It is about making a decision. The key is not to worry about which choice to make. The key is to make a choice and go ahead with it.

    Each Lunar Phase represents a Divine Spirit or Archetype. The Spirit of the Crossroads Moon the decision-making capability of Antinous/Mercury. It is the spirit of making choices, weighing options and then choosing one.

    This Crossroads lunar spirit is the guardian at the crossroads who admonishes travelers not to dither nor tary, not to avoid making a decision. He is the guardian who presents travelers with alternatives. He does not care whether the right choice is made, but only insists that some choice is made.

    He personifies the roads, streets and highways in life, both literal and figurative. He also represents the network of veins and arteries in your body along which oxygen-enriched blood flows to every organ.

    And this spirit is the embodiment of any parting of the ways. He is the turning point and the divining rod who shows the way ahead.

    . . . . Because this lunar phase occurs in December or January, it is an ideal time for taking stock of the old year and making decisions for the new year.
    . . . .
    On Monday your best intentions for clearing up all the accumulated holiday work from your desk is thwarted constantly by interruptions and unpleasant surprises. Blame a 90-degree square angle between the Capricorn Sun and Aries Uranus."

    "French poet Edmond Jabes had this to say about the birth of big creative ideas that dramatically transform one's life: "For the writer, discovering the work he will write is both like a miracle and a wound, like the miracle of the wound." Regardless of whether or not you're an artist, Cancerian, I expect that you will experience a wrenching and amazing awakening like this in 2014. The opening you've been hoping and working for will finally crack its way into your destiny. It may be one of the most pleasurable disruptions you've ever had. "

    "With volatile astrology scrambling up these next few weeks, nearly everything seems to be in flux in your world, Cancer, if not all around… not the least of which is your interpersonal sector, where Venus is just now going retrograde (in your solar 7th) and threatening to flood your relationship life with new prospects, old lovers, and/or previously under-examined considerations that suddenly demand much greater attention. This Venus-retrograde business could result in some pretty strange and/or unexpected attractions or rekindlings, the manifestation of which will help stimulate further reflections on what (and/or who) really does it for you in a relationship situation—and what may merely be a habit-leftover from who you used to be, in obvious need of an update. Plus, due to the holiday season being what it is, you can also count on the usual familial pressures, headaches, guilt-trips, and/or power-struggles to stir up the expected inner-turmoil of anger, self-doubt, eagerness-to-please and/or general emotional ambivalence. And, to top it all off, there remains an ongoing uncertainty to your current career spot and/or whatever else you're doing out there in the world… which is definitely not a bad thing in itself, but makes it that much more precarious a topic since your less-sure footing leaves you especially susceptible to feeling triggered by others' nervous questionings, judgmental remarks, and/or skeptical attitudes. This perfect-storm collision of astro-factors could sound like a total mess waiting to explode, except for one key feature I haven't yet mentioned: good king Jupiter's bountiful presence in your sign. Even in light of all this potential for chaotic unfolding everywhere, you, my dear Cancer, are in the most favorable position. So please let that fact embolden you to refuse to take anyone else's shit, and to let 'em hear your opinion on it… to actually enjoy the process of sorting appropriate from less-appropriate relationship prospects, based on your criteria rather than whether you fit theirs… and to gallantly show how you're going to make 2014 your bitch."

    My ramblings/what I plan to do with it: All of these horoscopes (which are, in many ways, shockingly and almost frighteningly speaking with a near-single voice) are fascinating in light of the rise of my typical New Year's unmooredness. Typically for the few days around the Gregorian New Year, I feel myself sort of let go of the things which normally keep me somewhat moored to a course or a dock and just begin to float whichever way the currents of coincidence take me. This seems to have begun a bit early for me this year, this serene lack of pre-planning, maybe three days ago (right after Christmas). Perhaps oddly, it almost feels as if I'm more in touch with my yollotl, my heart, the dynamic part of me that wants and moves and desires. This is a mystery I have been pondering. Mayhap the exhortation to strive to mirrorhood rather than reflectionhood in this trecena (which will end January 11) might have a clue here.

    I'm certainly feeling the desire to go a little inward and am rather joyous that on Tuesday I will likely be heading down to an isolated cabin for New Year's. I'll be with a group of friends (I'm finally accepting a years-standing invitation from a friend for her annual cabin New Year's), but it will nonetheless be nicely isolated. Hopefully, this will lay the foundation of my standing in the eye of the storm rather than its path. I must say, though, that I have been rather proud of my ability to be calm in challenging situations this past Gregorian month and I seem to be getting better at identifying my needs and boundaries in relationship, if my relationship with my parents is any indication. A really beautiful conversation with my father the day after Thanksgiving opened the door to my wearing a skirt to a family function for the first time ever. Awesomely, enough, that function happened to be on the Solstice! That night alone has also allowed me to feel more comfortable and more me around family. With Hoor-paar-kraat's aid as Crowned and Conquering Child, may this process continue and prosper! My sexual/romantic/intimate relationships have also been a bounty lately, particularly that with my dom. That's going so well that I have to fight back feelings that are coming too quickly and were outside our negotiations. He did instruct me to list myself as "under his consideration" on FetLife, so maybe my over-the-moonness is not unrequited ;-D

    All in all, I'm actually having a bit of trouble identifying the direction whence the storm is coming, which actually frightens me some. Perhaps a spot of divination tomorrow might be helpful. I might be seeing my dom tomorrow night; maybe he could read my tarot or somesuch. Or I could ask my friend Thorne. Or both :-)

    Also, tomorrow is Tlazolteotl's day! Maybe I'll work on my third post for Planting Justice's Compost the Empire blog, which is the second in my series explaining what that slogan means to me, is entitled "I Don't Know How to Twerk, But Now I Have a Reason to Learn", and is all about the holiness of shit.
    Saturday, December 7th, 2013
    8:39 am
    4-Ozomatli 1-Tochtli 2-Tochtli DIES SATURNI A.D. VIII KAL. DEC. MMDCCLXVI A.U.C. ☉ 15° Sag ☽ 20° Aqu
    December 7, 2013
    4-Ozomatli 1-Tochtli 2-Tochtli (4-Monkey 1-Rabbit 2-Rabbit)
    5th day of the Antinous Fortuna Moon
    ☉ in 15° Sagittarii : ☽ in 20° Aquarii : dies Saturni : Anno ⅠⅤⅹⅹⅰ æræ legis
    DIES SATURNI A.D. VIII KAL. DEC. MMDCCLXVI A.U.C.
    ???th day of “I have already been killed for my imperfections”
    220th day of “the seed that weaves an abundance of belonging, taking our splintered lives and growing a living web of interconnectedness. The intention of strength together, an equilibrium of giving and receiving.”
    178th day of “I dance in right relationship with desire in every moment”
    37th day of “We sacrifice that which keeps us from living in love”

    Today is the Hermaia Eriounia, modern festival of Hermes Luck-Bringer! It’s a day for games, role-reversal, and gambling, the time to make sacrifices for good luck in the next year, as well as for the kledon, or marketplace overhearing-things oracle. At least one war was fought as a result of the kledon.

    It is also the dies mortis (deathday) of Sanctus Marcus Tullius Cicero, good ol' Garbanzo Bean, the great Roman orator, philosopher, and letter-writer. He is a sanctus Ekklesias Antinoou in the class of Blessed Figures, Prophets, Writers, and Artists of Spiritual Homoeros. Furthermore, it is the dies natalis of Sancta Willa Cather, sancta Ekklesias Antinoou in the class of Dedicants to and Messengers of Antinous.

    azteccalendar.com: “Day Ozomahtli (Monkey) is governed by Xochipili, the Flower Prince, as its provider of tonalli (Shadow Soul) life energy. Ozomahtli is a day for creating, for play, for celebrating. A good day for lightheartedness, a bad day for seriousness. Ozomahtli is a warning about how easily the noble person can be trapped by the lures of public life.

    The thirteen day period (trecena) that starts with day 1-Tochtli (Rabbit) is ruled by Xiuhtecuhtli, Lord of the Year. Tochtli is the last trecena of the sacred year. It signifies the end of one cycle and the beginning of a new one. These are 13 days associated with the mystical sacrifice proper to the vanguard of another age: it is an auspicious time, one great workers united in their goals; it is also a dangerous time, one of great risks requiring great courage and diligence. These days remind us of the old god, the first god, who both separates and unites the worlds of dreaming and waking: somewhere between winter and spring, something wakes in the dreaming heart which endures across the span of the cycling ages. These are good days to focus on the needs of others; bad days to focus on one's own needs. “

    antinousstars.blogspot.com: “On Saturday a quantum shift occurs when Mars leaves persnickety Virgo and enters diplomatic Libra, where the war god will remain until the end of July 2014. This means that in the coming months it will be more easier to find elegant compromises to resolve difficult conflicts with a minimum of effort. In your personal life, Libra Mars helps you to free yourself of old complications which have kept you bound and tied up.
    . . . .
    In Antinous Moon Magic, this is the lunar phase we call the FORTUNA MOON. This is the classic good luck moon of the astrological year.

    Each Lunar Phase represents a Divine Spirit or Archetype. The Spirit of the Fortuna Moon is the Spirit of Victory and Success.

    This Spirit is the champion crossing the finish line, the winner of the match, the one holding the gold medal.

    This Spirit is the embodiment of the proverbial happy ending, the sweet smell of success, the incredible run of luck, the feather in one's cap, the stroke of genius, the jackpot, the mother lode.

    Antinous is holding a bottomless cornucopia with a powerful serpent wrapped around the cornucopia to enhance its power and ensure that nothing untoward can possible occur.

    Antinous during this Lunar Phase is the personification of Good Fortune, the one for whom everything is coming up roses. He wraps his arm around your shoulder and says, "Trust your luck. Trust me."

    The is the best lunar cycle of the year for casting oracles, reading the runes or the cards or working spells for success in the coming year.”

    freewillastrology.com: “"You get tragedy where the tree, instead of bending, breaks," said the philosopher Ludwig Wittgenstein. But you don't have to worry about that outcome, Cancerian. The storm might howl and surge, but it will ultimately pass. And although your tree may bend pretty far, it will not break. Two weeks from now, you won't be mourning your losses, but rather celebrating your flexibility and resilience. Congratulations in advance! “

    astrobarry.com: “As your mind shifts towards more distinctly dutiful, constructive and/or work-or-health-related concerns, Cancer, you'll also find your recent outwardly-expressive orientation starts to turn back inward a bit. Though you still have one benefic in your 1st (Jupiter) and the other in your 7th (Venus), a pretty awesome astro-situation (as I described two weeks ago), you're also now welcoming willful Mars into the inner-sanctum of your 4th, where he'll remain through the middle of next year (an extra-long-and-slow visit from a typically fast-moving planet). This bears the likelihood of stirring a fair degree of internal unrest… which is not necessarily a bad thing, if it indeed spurs you to (re)assert agency over your own emotional state, and to take whatever steps might be required (possibly including establishing new ground-rules with family members, standing up for yourself in the domestic sphere, or switching up your residential circumstance to provide you greater autonomy) so you feel you're adequately taking care of yourself. With that in mind, then, use this mental shift to consider which practical tasks might need to be handled, in order to ultimately make Mars's protracted 4th-house visit worth the likely unrest.”

    My ramblings/what I plan to do with it: Well, today looks rather clear! Moreso than it has for a while anyway. It also seems to be rather auspicious that my family will be celebrating three different birthdays today (my brother, my cousin, and my cousin’s boyfriend).

    Hermes may not, in and of himself, be one of my mup gods, but he is the daddy of one of them. Aphrodite wanted to fuck Hermes, but he would only fuck boys (how many of my friends know what that’s like?). So she put on a beard and made him think she was a boy. Hermaphroditos was the result of that union and he, in turn, merged with a lake nymph to give us the word hermaphrodite. Because of this, I plan to celebrate the Eriounia today in three ways: 1) playing games and having fun at the birthday party, 2) sacrificing from my meal at that party to Hermes Luck-Bringer, and 3) finding some way to perform the kledon, which shouldn’t be too hard as my family is likely having the party in a shopping center. It also seems that Antinous Neos Hermes will be helping out, as the Antinous Fortuna Moon is also bringing luck and powerful oracles. I'm also planning to make another sacrifice, after dark has fallen, to the sancti Marcus Tullius Cicero and Willa Cather. During that sacrifice, I will read Willa's poem to Antinous and something from Cicero as well, to invoke them as ancestors.

    The influence from Xochipilli is certainly welcome and likely indicates that I am in sore need of getting back into my writing. I wrote just under 25K words of a 50K novel goal in November, was really excited about it and set myself a 10K goal for every month until I finish the thing. Since then, not a word >.< The last line of azteccalendar’s description is particularly loud for me as well. I’ve become caught up in messy and bad office relationships (“public life”) and am in desperate need of focusing on my noble life. Considering that Xochipilli is one of the Nahua gods most associated with gender deviance and same-sex love, I find myself kind of sad that I will be spending the day with my family instead of, say, the Fairies. Mayhap I should add a little bit to my Hermes Eriounia sacrifice asking the two of them to give me luck in finding the love and community I want.

    Speaking of Ozomatli, I’m really quite happy that what Hernestus says in the Antinous Stars blog seems to directly answer it. The new diplomatic turn of events should help me smooth my way out of the distractions of public life. That’s the thing, though, with lubrication (which is what diplomacy is), it makes it easier to go in whatever direction you are going. I need to watch myself if this is going to be as happy as I hope it would be.

    Oh, and wait a minute! If I then bring in what AstroBarry says, I take a look at my familial relationships too (I guess Hernestus’s horoscopy is the glue of the day’s oracles). There’s some friction there, some mere inertia from years of patterns and some for more immediate reasons. Today, I think, is the day to face these head-on. I’ve already told my brother that I’ve had his gift waiting for weeks, which came as a surprise to him as my gift-giving tendencies had fallen off in the past several years. My father feels a lot of pain that I didn’t tell them I’ve been on hormones earlier -- I should have a talk with him, I think.
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